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Jho's POV

It's already 1am hindi parin ako makatulog. Hays ilang oras nalang aalis na ako ng Pilipinas. Nakakalungkot lang iiwanan ko yung mga nakasanayan ko at ang taong mahal ko, hindi ko naman sana dapat to gagawin kung hindi lang sila humiram ng ganung kalaking pera. Gusto kong magalit pero hindi ko nagawa dahil baka yung perang hiniram nila ay para pala sa amin? Pero sobra naman yata ang nahiram nilang pera.

sinasamahan na akong mag lagay ni jaja ng mga gamit ko sa likod ng sasakyan habang umiiyak siya.

"Para naman akong mamamatay sa kakaiyak mo. Janel anim na taon lang ako doon wag kang ano diyan" I said

"Anim na taon LANG? Maka lang ka diyan akala mo anim na araw kalang doon." kahit nga anim na araw lang namimiss ko na kayo agad e hays. "Kita ko story ni ate Bei kahapon, magkasama pala kayo? Ano ate sinabi mo na ba?" sunod sunod na tanong niya

"Ah hindi. Hindi naman niya na dapat malaman e" Gusto kong sabihin lahat pero hindi ko kaya, noong nakaraang araw lang pinag uusapan namin si nico. Ngayon balak na akong ipakasal sakaniya, tadhana nga naman.

Nakasakay na kami sa sasakyan ngayon papuntang manila, at ito ako nakatingin sa picture namin ni bea.

"Bea tapusin na natin to. Hindi na kita mahal." I lied

"Jho please wag mo naman ako iwan. Pangako tutulungan kita sa mga problema mo, makikinig ako sa mga hinanakit mo sa buhay. Or kung pera man I can ask dad na taasan niya allowance ko so I can give you. Just don't leave me please"

"Bea kung ganoon lang kakapal ang mukha ko, hindi tayo magiging ganto. I know you can help me pero ayoko mag karoon ng utang ng loob sayo at sa pamilya mo. Hayaan mo akong gumawa ng paraan. Pangako ko sayo kapag ayos na ang lahat babalikan kita"

"But jho.. I can't live without you" sabi ni bea habang umiiyak

"Kaya mo. Isipin mo nabuhay ka naman nang wala ako. Kaya mo Bea, you're the strongest woman I know." sabi ko at tinalikuran siya

"If you'll leave, you cannot see me anymore. I'll forget you" when I was about to turn back,  jaja wake me up. I suddenly look at the ring she gave me and realize what happen to my dream. I wish I am so brave to tell her all the shit happenings so she could understand why I am going to leave her.

"Ate okay kalang ba? Binabangungot ka yata." and she point her finger to my face so I can wipe my tear  "Andito na tayo sa Airport, tara kape muna bago ka pumasok?" sabi ni jaja at pilit ngumiti

"Hindi na. Anong oras na din, babawi nalang ako sayo pagbalik ko mabilis lang to" sabi ko at nag paalam na ako kanila mama at jaja para makapasok na. But jaja hug me tightly, so I hug her back

"Please get that champion for me" I whisper to her and I laugh sarcastic

"Nag e-english kana ha, sige sasagutin din kita english. I would, I mean we would" sabi nya kaya pareho kaming tumawa. Nang lilikod na sana ako para pumasok jaja called me again

"Ano nanaman ja? Ayaw mo talaga akong paalisin no" sabi ko

"Last na, Smile ka send ko kay ate bea" sabi nya holding her phone so I smile and do the finger heart

"Okay na?" tanong ko kaya tumango lang sya habang tumatawa.

I turned back. And never looked back so I can't see them crying. Because it hurt me a lot.

Nang nasa boarding na ako tumunog ang phone ko at nakitang tinag ako ni jaja sa story niya.

"Have a safe flight eagle claw. Ako na bahala sa Beaby mo. Charot" napasapo nalang ako sa ulo ko nang makita yun

7:30 naka pasok na ako ng eroplano and by 8:00am aalis na ang eroplano. While waiting I decided to message bea sa messenger because I thought she's still sleeping. But I was wrong

"Please be safe Bea." message ko sakanya. When I was about to ignore her to all my social media account I saw bea replied

"But I just feel safe when I am with you." I know my love. I'm sorry for leaving you, for making you alone again. But this is just for us, wait for me. Babalikan kita if you can wait me. No, if you will wait me.

Ini-ignore ko na lahat ng mga message nya, So we can't be chat mate because my dad will get mad if he knows that I'll still talking to bea. I search her twitter so i can ignore her messages there too I saw bea recently tweet.

"If only I knew that it was the last hug and that I would see you. Sana hinigpitan at Hinatid nalang kita. Please be safe too. Ily" while reading her tweet I found myself crying. Naguilty ako bigla.

"I know many people love you. And I also know that they won't let you to be alone again" I tweeted

"Aayusin ko to agad. Babalikan kita, please wait for me" I tweeted and delete my twitter account so I can't see her tweet again.

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