CUPID

CHAPTER 16

CHAPTER 16

That feeling when you are already floating from positive feelings. Suddenly, the bomb has exploded.

That morning, Brian is brushing his teeth in the bathroom after taking a shower. While brushing, his brain is in the other side of the world. He feels like this day is going to be a good day. Nararamdaman na niya.

Last night, all he did was deep thinking. Halos hindi siya makatulog dahil sa kakaisip. Most of them are about his strange feelings towards a guy named Natan.

Brian is confuse why does he is feeling this shit to a guy. This feeling of attraction, the feeling of missing Natan's smile suddenly and then there's the urge to go to Natan's apartment just to see those smiles. Then, whenever he remembers Natan's lips, his mood became light and good.

Those feeling should never been felt by him especially he felt those towards another guy.

This just means he is starting to grow into Natan.

Brian suddenly think of courting Natan by that time. What does it feels like to court him though? Papayag ba iyon? Would it be a good thing to do? Would Natan not get mad at him?

Brian is used to courting women he is attracted to ever since he starts liking women. So that's what he thought when he starts accepting his feelings towards Natan.

But would Natan agree though?

Naranasan na ba ni Natan na ligawan in the first place? If not, then it will going to be his first time.

Brian's lips curved into a smile when that thought runs into his brain. He will going to be Natan's first suitor if ever.

Brian is determined now. He will ask Natan if he can court him. Sana lang ay pumayag ito.

That day when Brian is brushing his teeth, he smiles again after remembering what he decided last night.

I just hope he will agree. Even if I need to court him in private, I will do it. As long as he accepts my proposal.

Sanay na si Brian na kapag na-attract siya sa isang tao, hindi agad iyon natatanggal. Hanggang sa lumala iyon at dumating ang panahon na magugustuhan niya ito. Noong una ay hindi niya matanggap na attracted siya kay Natan, dahil paniguradong ang atraksyon na iyon ay baka lumala. But now, he doesn't care if his feelings grow. Let it grow then. Saka niya na isipin ang mga bagay-bagay kapag naging sila na ni Natan mismo.

Fuck. Natan being his boyfriend sounds weird. Him having boyfriend sounds weird. But who cares? Brian doesn't care about opinions of others though. The only opinions he really listens to are his parents' opinions. Other than that, he doesn't care about other's opinions.

If ever his parents found out about his newfound attraction, and then they go against those --- Brian would go against his parents if it happened. But let's not talk about that now. It's not happening yet.

Matapos magbihis ni Brian ng polo shirt na puti at pantalon na itim --- their University's institutional uniform for male students --- he went to kitchen and starts eating with his sister.

"You look happy today, Kuya!" Napansin agad nito ang ngiti sa mga labi ni Brian. "I knew it! You are in love!"

"Shut up."

"Tsh. Hindi na ako magtataka na ibalita mo sa akin next week that you already have a girlfriend." Sumiring ito saka sumubo ng hotdog.

Natawa lang si Brian. Ano kaya ang magiging reaksyon ng kapatid niya kung sakaling hindi girlfriend ang ibabalita nita rito, kundi boyfriend? That will going to be epic. Haha.