Second Chances

~Nine~

It's been three months since the infamous fifty shades scene, as Y/n has now jokingly named her break-up. To say she's moved on and is past what happened would be a lie. But she's getting there. Jimin did slip up a few times and showed up outside the gym and then at her favorite coffee shop trying to talk to her. But each time he was met with an angry, protective Jungkook to not allow him to talk to her. He left countless messages and texts for her, pleading to just talk to him and how sorry he was, but they all went unreturned. After about a month of endless attempts Jimin finally conceded and left her alone. That didn't mean he was over her though. He was far from it. His heart was broken, he was lost. He felt dead inside, having lost his reason for being. But he had no one to blame but himself. People in the dom/sub world wouldn't call what they do cheating, there are no feelings involved. It's purely about desires and pleasure. It's their kink and everyone has kinks. They are still devoted to their significant others. But Jimin knew what would happen if he didn't give it up, especially knowing it wasn't something Y/n enjoyed. He had a feeling this would happen. And it's not like he didn't have enough time to stop before she caught him. He was selfish. He was disgusting. He hated himself.

"Dude, you have to stop beating yourself up and blaming yourself. You did nothing wrong except not tell her about it. If she couldn't accept that this is a part of your life then that's on her man, and she wasn't the right girl for you." Jimin listens to Namjoon ramble on as he stares at his cup of coffee. Namjoon has become his only friend, having lost everyone after what he did. Even his parents and brother have a hard time being around him anymore because they loved Y/n so much and Jungkook may have slipped up and told his brother he cheated on her. He at least appreciated that Jungkook had enough respect to not tell them everything, just that he was a cheater. But it was enough to earn total disappointment from his family. "There's no one else to blame hyung, I did this. I hurt her. I lied to her and broke her heart. She caught me in bed with another woman for fuck sakes! How can anyone say not to blame myself!" Namjoon sighs and sits back as his younger friend wallows for the millionth time. He's so tired of hearing about it but knows he's all Jimin has and needs to vent. Namjoon runs his hands up his face into his hair and then looks at Jimin. "Ok yes, finding you in the middle of an act in a hotel room I'm sure was traumatizing and definitely a deal breaker for most people. The only thing I see wrong with it though is that you weren't honest from the beginning and then she caught you. You snuck around and lied to her and you got caught man. But you shouldn't feel ashamed of what you want. Your desires and kinks and what not. That's who you are. Everyone has desires and kinks." Jimin was incessantly shaking his head. "Yes Chim, everyone. Even your perfect Y/n has kinks and desires. Just because hers is different than yours doesn't makes yours wrong." Jimin looks up at Namjoon with pained eyes and says, "but it IS wrong because it cost me her." "What happened to saying you were leaving it to be with her?" Jimin groaned and sat back in his chair. "I was. That was going to be my last sub." Namjoon couldn't help but chuckle at the irony of the statement. "I guess it was Chim. I'm sorry man."

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"You want to go to barbecue with me, Hyuk and Sor tonight after work?" Jungkook stands over the bar to spot Y/n while she does her reps. She never ceases to amaze him with her strength, she's a strong ass woman. "I don't know. I'm pretty tired. I might just go home, take a shower, and crawl into bed and watch a show." Jungkook groans at her. "Boo! You're becoming boring again peach. You're 24, live a little before you settle down." Y/n shoots him a pained glare once she's sat up and Jungkook knows his word choice was wrong. "Sorry sorry. Wrong words. You know what I mean though. Come onnnn." He comes up behind her and hugs her, burying his face in her neck. He nibbles a little and whispers, "I'll make you feel good when we get back home gorgeous." She laughs and pulls away from him. "I thought we both agreed no more?" Jungkook boops her nose and flashes his adorable bunny smile while crinkling his nose at her. This man has some duality. "YOU said that, I just agreed with what you wanted. And how many times have you said that and still end up in my bed? Hm?" Y/n blushes and slaps his arm. "Shut up. I'm serious though. I don't want to risk our friendship by hooking up." She walks into the locker room and he follows, grabbing her and pushing her to the wall once inside. She gasps as he gets close to her face. "We both know this isn't just a hook up. I love you, you know that. You're my best friend Y/n and the best sex I've ever had. Nothing has complicated our friendship in the past few months has it? Or even the past couple of years." He looks at her with a cute smile waiting for her answer. She huffs and shakes her head. "Exactly. We are two single friends that love each other that connect great in bed. If you or, god forbid, I ever meet someone we want to start a relationship with then this stops. And it won't cause any problems and you know it. We're helping each other out." She sighs and rests her head on his chest. "But you don't even sleep with anyone else. I'm holding you back." He steps back and arches a brow at her. "Who says I'm not sleeping with anyone else?" She looks at him like 'I know you don't' and he laughs. "Ok, so you're my only hook up right now. What's wrong with that? You fill my needs beautiful, so I don't need to fuck anyone else. Why put in the effort to hook up with someone else when I have a great piece of ass living under my roof?" Y/n throws her bag at him but he catches it laughing. "You're a pig." He winks at her grinning.