Wreaking Havoc

quīndecim

"Breaking news," Astrid uttered when she entered my room as I was taking some clothes from my cabinet. Tipid ko siyang nginitian at itinuro 'yung iba kong mga damit na nakapatong na sa may higaan ko.

"Why, what happened?"

Astrid sighed, "Tell me... Did Eli come from here a day ago?"

I bit my lower lip and nodded habang naglalakad papalapit sa kaniya dala-dala 'yung mga napili kong damit na dadalhin sa New York, "My dad... My dad hurt him."

Astrid closed her eyes, "As for the injuries, they weren't really that bad as per Benji, although he really went to school like he just came from hazing," she said. I understand what Astrid was feeling at this point. She wasn't that close to Eli's friends but they were both kind to us... I'm sure she was feeling torn between us. "They told me I should tell you that."

"Okay," I uttered. Natahimik na lang si Astrid, but we were both bothered with my phone that kept on ringing.

"Aren't you going to answer that?" Astrid asked, looking at my phone which has been vibrating for hours. "Just block him, you know? If you really want to let him go, Therese, don't give him the chance to communicate with you. It'd just make it harder for him." Her words felt like a slap to my face. I should've thought about that... Masyado ko yatang inisip na titigil na lang siyang kusa sa pagse-send ng message.

I hate when I'm being illogical that I don't even know it prolongs the agony of other people.

I took my phone and put it on silent bago tinignan 'yung huling text ni Eli sa'kin. I didn't want to open his message dahil makikita niyang nabasa ko na... Ayaw kong isipin niya na pwede pa siyang kumapit when I literally let him get hurt by my father's body guards.

I know I was the worst.

And if he'd hate me for the rest of his life, I'd understand.

But I can't risk his dream and life... 

I'd rather be hurt than see him regret for a lifetime.

All these just because Mom didn't want him for me.

Fucking standards. If only mom wanted a rich psychopath like Ansel, I would've just created a cover for Eli. 

'Please don't leave me.'

I sighed. As much as I didn't want to block Eli, I was left with no other choice. 

"I blocked him," I uttered, tossing my phone to the other side of the bed. I wasn't going to cry again... I didn't want to cry anymore. Masyado na'kong stressed the past few days and I know how bad stress can be for the baby, tapos hindi pa'ko makapunta ng hospital para makapag-pa-check up dahil pakiramdam ko naka-house arrest na'ko hanggang sa flight ko.

"You haven't told him?"

I shook my head, "I will... someday," I uttered. Astrid didn't say another word at tinulungan na lang akong magtiklop ng mga damit. I didn't have to bring a lot of clothes because I know I could just buy there and I'd probably have to buy maternity ones when my stomach starts to grow bigger. 

"How about your mom?" she asked all of a sudden when we were finally done packing my clothes. Inilagay ko na lang din sa maleta 'yung mga libro ko dahil marami pa namang space. 

"I don't... I don't really want her to know. But I'll see if Dad can help me."

"Have you forgiven him?"

I faintly smiled, "I don't think so... But right now, I think he's my last resort."

Astrid didn't stay for long dahil may pasok pa sila sa hapon. It feels weird... everything's happening so soon. Parang kahapon lang I was ranting about how second sem's harsher even with only four subjects, tapos ngayon nag-eempake na'ko paalis.