It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

"You seriously didn't know that he likes you?"

My forehead creased because of what Valerie asked. She sounded as if it was obvious and I was just clueless slash numb, but no, I wasn't. I was aware of his actions towards me; however, I tried not to put a meaning on it. I don't want to jump to conclusions or assume.

"I have the guts, but I refuse to conclude, Val," I said on the phone. I heard Valerie click her tongue, sounding like I did the wrong thing. "I just don't want to assume."

"Pero ikaw ba, gusto mo din ba si Liam or you just really see him as a friend?" Sunod niyang tanong na dahilan para mawalan ako ng imik. Bumuka ang bibig ko pero hindi ko naman mahanap ang mga salitang sasabihin ko.

Bumuntong-hininga si Valerie dahil sa pananahimik ko. "Bakit hindi ka makasagot? Hindi ko puwedeng idaan 'yan sa silence means yes." May pahabol pa siyang mahinang tawa sa dulo.

Hinayaan kong bumagsak ang katawan ko sa malambot na kama habang ang phone ay nasa tapat pa rin ng tenga ko. "I don't know what to do, Valerie... Naguguluhan na ako."

"Kung hindi mo naman siya gusto, hindi ka naman maguguluhan 'e. Puwera na lang kung meron talaga pero pinipilit mo lang huwag aminin kasi natatakot ka."

Parang sa bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig niya ay may katumpakan, ni hindi ko magawang depensahan ang sarili ko o kahit umangal dahil may punto naman 'yung mga sinasabi niya. Kung wala akong gusto kay Liam, hindi naman dapat ako maguluhan. Dapat alam ko kung anong gagawin ko pero heto ako ngayon, parang kailangan ko pang maghalungkat ng kasagutan sa isipan ko kung ano bang gagawin sa sitwasyon namin.

"Sienna, I know what you went through and I understand that you still have fears. Naiintindihan naman ni Liam 'yun kahit na hindi niya pa lubos na alam kung anong pinagdaanan mo... Pero gusto niyang magpakatotoo ka sa sarili mo. He's not pushing you to tell the truth for his sake, but for your sake. He likes you, right?"

"Yes..." I silently answered.

"And he also wants you to grow," she added and right after that someone knocked on the door, which made me get out of bed. Naglakad ako papunta sa pinto at binuksan 'yun. I silently gasped when I realized it was Liam who knocked on the door.

I held my eyes on him and spoke to Valerie. "I'll just call you later, Val. Ingat kayo pauwi." Pagkatapos nu'n ay binaba ko ang phone at parehong tumaas ang kilay kay Liam. "May kailangan ka?"

"Um, wala... Inakyat lang kita dito kasi kakain na daw sabi ni Aliyah," aniya kaya napatango ako. Napunta naman ang tingin ko sa magulo niyang buhok. Pagkatapos niya yatang bumangon, dumiretso na kaagad siyang lumabas ng kwarto at hindi man lang nag-ayos.

"Your hair," seryoso kong sabi at nakuha niya ang sinabi ko. Kaagad niyang inayos ang buhok niya pero may ilang parte pa rin ang magulo kung kaya't hindi napigilan ng mga mata ko ang umirap. "Ano ba 'yan..."

I senselessly reached his hair and helped fix it. I was so focused on making his hair look neat, but then I realized what I was doing. I was so close that I caught him staring deeply and even though our eyes met, he didn't shift his gaze away from me. He was like diving deeper to my thoughts by just looking straight to my eyes.