Falling in love with an Aburame (x reader)

Suicide

You got released from hospital. You still wasn't talking to Shino and you were escorted to the hokage's office due to your father being arrested. She wants to help you get on with your life.  It hurts to think about it. Sure your father had his problems, but who doesn't? You mother left you, and now your father has been arrested, you have nothing left. Nothing.

Tsunade is speaking to you but you are not listening. Your head is in your hands and you started to wish your mother had never left you. Everything could be okay. You could have your dad free, you could be with Shino. You know you could still be with Shino but you don't want to. Not after he broke his promise and ruined your life.

You look up for a minute and see Tsunade staring at you.

"(Y/N) are you alright?" She asks. You put on a fake smile and nod

"I'm fine" you say "can I leave now?" She dismisses you.

(Tsunades POV)

I watched her leave.  There is something seriously wrong with her. I call Shizune and she comes willingly.

"Shizune, I need you to call Kakashi, I have a mission for him and its serious" She nods and leaves. Not long later Kakashi comes in reading his Icha Icha book. He puts it in his pouch and looks at me. "Kakashi, I need you to keep an eye on (Y/N)" I say.

"Is there something the matter with her?" He asks me.

"something is definitely wrong with her" I say and send Kakashi on his mission.

(back to normal pov)

You was sat in your lounge crying again. There was a war inside your head. A war you were losing. 'This pain has got to end' you thought 'but it will never end without mother here.' You looks up at the ceiling.

You got a piece of paper and a pen and started to write a note.

Dear whoever,

This is my note. I believe that's what people do when they... I can't even say it. So that is what I am doing. I am leaving a note. I have regretted so much in my life. I have never really had a good thing happen to me. Well except this one thing but that's over now. Good things don't happen to, if they do, I ruin it. So Shino if you are reading this, you were the greatest thing to happen to me. I'm leaving now because I have to end the pain. End the pain my mother gave me and my father. End it all. Good bye.

You put the note in your pocket and headed to the roof. You threw the note of and it vanished.  You looked over the edge. A bug bothered you so you shoed it away before looking at the ground below you. Tears fell.

More and more bugs surrounded you and bugged you (see what I did there aye? aye? aye? lol sorry) until you felt two strong arms around you.

"please don't jump" a voice said in your ear. It was Shino. You grabbed his arms and threw him to the ground, where of which he exploded into bugs. Another version of him came out. You quickly slashed that, making bugs crawl away.

"don't try and stop me Shino" You said harshly. You threw the kunai and it nearly hit Shino in the head.

"I'm not going to, but if you die..." he pulls the Kunai out of the wall next to him, "I die" he finishes his sentence and holds the kunai to his chest. "I love you (Y/N)" You felt yourself unable to breathe.

Looking over the edge again, you prepared yourself to jump. 'I can't take this pain no more' You thought to yourself and then place a foot over the edge.