LOVE

Chapter 14

Since Rose was a child, she developed a trauma response, whenever she gets hurt she tends to forget everything. She doesn't remember much of her childhood or even how much she was hurt when her and Marley slipped up.

Devastated, Rose woke up before Sam, not remembering a thing. How did she land on his arms? When did she fall asleep? It was just too much to process! She just needed her coffee! At that moment Rose wished to wake up and for it to be just a nightmare. And as she was sipping her coffee it all came back vaguely, but it did!

She kept telling herself it wasn't true and Marley was the man she belongs with, she used to be so convinced of it, and how couldn't he be after everything! They just kept coming back to each other, you can't say it meant nothing! But for the first time in years, she had doubts. While drinking her coffee, wishing to get some sense in her mind, Rose did her best to not wake Sam up, she couldn't deal with him at the moment. She just couldn't!

A big part of Rose wished for the day to end already, she knew Marley wouldn't take it, she knew they are going to argue, after all, the one person who tried times and times to break them for good is back in her life, tried to kiss her and they spent the night together in the same room in the same apartment, cuddle the whole night, and even if she had nothing to do with ot, all of this was way too incriminating. And what about her second thoughts, how can she tell her friends about it when she spent too many years hoping for her and Marley to happen again, she went days talking about it, made choregraphies inspired from it and she even wrote essays about it, everyone knows about their story! and now how could she not be sure anymore?

While she was on her thoughts, zooming out, she felt hands wrapping her from behind, at first she enjoyed it, even held them back, but once she realized it was Sam she instantly rejected him "No Sam please no!" "But Rose!" He tried to speak but Rose cut him off. "This isn't fair for any of us, I was okay with my life, got my way back to Marley finally and out of the blue you came back, turned everything upside down and here we are now!" You can feel the tears coming up just by the pitch of her voice. He couldn't hear her blame him, he had to say something, "Rose stop!' He increased his voice, 'didn't you for a second imagine how hard it had been for me! I watched you go through everything, went with all these boys, got into a relationship, and you didn't for once look at me! For even a second! I waited for you for years! And admit it, you wanted me! You told me to come with you! You told me to! And I know you well enough to know that if you didn't want me with you you would've kicked me out!" She was shocked! Sam wasn't the type of man who speaks about his feelings or show it, he wasn't the talkative, fun or always smiling guy, he was the complete opposite, but he always had a sweet spot for her, he was loving, caring, always there for her, more than anyone. No one knew her like he did not even Marley, and no one was better for her then him, a lot of people have seen it, even Sam was convinced of it, yet she didn't saw it, not till now, in a way she was blinded by what she thought was her feelings for Marley, she couldn't allow herself to love anyone else then him, especially not the one person who tried to break them up for good multiple times.

One thing was sure, she had to come clean to Marley, she couldn't stand hiding anything from him, she knew it could change a lot, but still she was determined to remain honest.

She couldn't find the right time since it was already June 24th, her best friend's birthday. Angele's birthday party was always a big event, she was the only one from her close friends who had her birthday when she was around, and also it was the only day that always felt like old time.

Rose spent the day trying to put up her best act, she didn't want to ruin anything for her friends, it was their favorite event. And what made it so special is, they had the habit of celebrating all of their achievements, it wasn't just about Angele but anyone who achieved anything!