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Natasha smith was always known as the 'quiet girl', she has a tight circle of childhood friends, and spends her days buried in books. Due to her anxiety she's always struggled making friends and putting herself out there but now's the perfect op...
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It's officially the first day of college.
To say I'm freaking out is an understatement. My first class starts at 8am, it takes 20 minutes to get there, it takes me an hour to get ready, which means I need to wake up at 6:30am. I may or may not be up at 6am. To be honest I haven't even got out of bed yet.
Finally getting out of bed at 6:30am I make my way to my closet to find something to wear. I had a shower yesterday so I don't need one this morning thankfully. I picked out a pair of blue mom jeans, a basic black top and my favorite white knitted jumper. Also putting on my converse.
After getting changed I walk into my bathroom to put on all my jewelry and to brush through my hair. Since my hair is Naturally straight I don't really have to do much to it, thank god. I also put on some mascara and lip bamb, I never wear any other makeup, I also have no idea how to do it. Maybe Abby could teach me.
Thankfully me and Abby share our psychology class, me and Ezra also share our English class. Unfortunately I don't share any with the others but your classes and their practice lines up so we can meet for lunch and go home together. Unless their practice runs late.
Today I have math as my first class, gross. But at 9:30 I have my next class which is English with Ezra and after that we go and meet the others for lunch. So all i have to do is make it from 8am until 9am on my own. No big deal.
Wrong. I feel like I'm going to throw up. In high school I always had at least one of the guys in my class and now that they are not in most of my classes I have no idea what I'm going to do. I know I shouldn't be so reliant on them but I can't help it.
Come on Nat you've got this. Maybe you'll make a new friend in this class.
Yeah, ok I can work with that.
Stepping back, I take a look at myself in the mirror making sure I look somewhat ok. When I'm finally pleased with my appearance I go back into my room and pack my bag. I found my favorite book, the love hypothesis, laptop, pencil case, notepad and both pairs of headphones. I quickly find my phone and keys before heading out of my room.
I try to be as quiet as possible since Abby doesn't have class until 10am so she's still asleep. Lucky woman. I make sure to put a pack of all blue jolly ranchers in my bag. I also make myself some toast before I go.
Putting the toast in my mouth I grab a bottle of water, my keys and phone then I'm out the door. I successfully made it to my jeep without falling over, which is very impressive for me. I place my bag on the passenger seat and plug my phone in so I can play my playlist. By now it's 7:30, since it only takes 20minutes to get there. I should have an extra 10 minutes to find myself a seat.
I jam out to my music the whole way there but I can't help but feel super anxious on the way there. I really wish I had someone here with me but I have to suck it up, I need to learn how to do this myself. I just hope I don't have a panic attack.
