Nothing
No emotions
Blank mind
A shield to not go crazy
A broken heart that pounds for something I can't have
Voice leak in the cracks
Yet I still can feel joy
Talking to my two friends
Playing around
Taking things, then have a tug-a-war
Smiles
Laughter
It let my shield slip
Bring my heart to soar to the sky above
His laugh
His smile
It's all I need
My friends laugh getting the sense of belonging
Then she gave a ship names
Letting me put up the shield
Protection from a lie that can't be true
No it's just what you think
You can force 2people like that
I just need true friends
Nothing more
But yet my heart denies my mind
It jumps with joy ,happy ness
Melting the barrier
My filter is gone
Nothing bad comes out at least I have one filter left
My heart makes my body buzz with joy
I go to where the fake friends are
They sign my book they look at it will I read
When there done I talk
And they talked back to me for the first time in ages
We had funny
It was like it was before what ever separated us happen
Till one friends says,
"It's wierd how normally your so awkward ,but today your so cool!"
My shield builds it self
No
No
Wait is that why they took there friendship with me on a stead stream to flow away slowly
Can it
Having no filter, no thinking and barley any shield my mouth says the question I been begging to ask but never did
"Why didn't you talk to me at lunch?
That did it
They shared a glance they made with out me
One I can barely read
Now I did it!
"And there goes the awkwardness"
She says almost like disappointment
Ouch
I cover it
I fixed in a weird way and hopeful they forgot because it when to before that comment but it was a little tense
After class my shield grew over my heart once again afraid to let it down
I can't lose friends
I can't disappoint my family
I won't be lonely
Why do they control me?
I just tumble down
Cuddle the ground
Wonder what ever when wrong?
