Hot salty water want to come out
My she doesn't care if i die
She would be so happy the day I die
She hates me with every bite of her soul
She yells at me
Says I'm wrong
Tells me to not be me
To be someone else
To make good grade
Be as good as my older sister
She yells at my every mood
Me run me till I give out
You wonder why I'm when I'm quite
You y'all slap my head when I'm quite
But the y'all try's glare at me when I talk
Every time I open my mouth and talk I won't to stop
But I won't because you'll kill me if I do
But you kill my soul
You say I'm evil
You say I'm the devil
And I believe you , I'm the demon you made
You your only proud of my grades
You won't let me choose the future I want
I don't care my self because of you
You screamed at me till I want to die
I won't tell you that for fear you'll laugh
I stay strong and defend my self
You say people won't accept my true self
I have shield for the monster that me inside
I tamed the monster, that me
Every yell is a whip
Every word slips me to half till I not my self
I half you idea half myself
I lock my self in my room to hide the demon inside ,my soul
You say not kind
You say I'm the rudest person you meet
You say I'm too evil to come out
My shield filters every word
I adapt to fit in
Just for you
But you hate me even more
You judge me
Wanting me be a different self
You say I have no manners so i learned
I'm afraid to took my flute
When you can hear
You say I'm bad
You say I suck
You say I'm terrible
You say I should give up
I wouldn't give up the people who are like a true family to me
I want to die
You say I should
So I won't
I learn to hate rule because of you
I hate having you tell me what to do
You control my life
But you don't know I write this down
You can't see my thoughts or my cries for death
You hate me , I hate you
I don't know what I did ,but I here I am
Everyone else says I'm so kind, caring, loving, forgiving, thoughtful , and joy to be around but you say it's a lie
That they just give pity
That they lie to make them feel better
I don't know who to trust the one who I knew my whole life or the ones who come after?
Am I truly the monster you say.
No I can't tell who says what
I can't tell if you said that or just my inner voice
Am I truly a demon inside?
