What would have happened if the never happened?
What would've been if I hav never stop?
What if you were still here?
Would we still write in the back of the class
Would we still discuss the next plots of our tales
Would we still bicker over book ideas
Share characters ideas
Would I finish a story for you in that world?
Would I have been friends with more like us?
Or would I've never look back in this directs?
Would I never come back to point you left me at
Each time with tears in my eyes
Would've you done something if I never diverge of the path we set?
Would've I done anything different?
Would you still nag on me for avoiding finish your stories so I could bing read in one go to annoy you?
Would you still glare and sigh at me
Or did you laugh in side
I can't remember
My mind has lost the memories that you once held long ago
You are like a sliver of my memories
But with such a weight that'll never be some person I was before you
You create a love for reading and writing
You were the first person to know my darkest path and you revealed yours
I used to respond to every time I could
I now regret ignoring you as I laze about
I regret never hunting you down to talk and hang out
To ask about you book
Your heart
And what you thought on your soul
I regret losing contact and never being able to do that again
I remember reading people as well as I read books
Sometimes even better back than
I could tell what was in your soul even book you spoke
I could tell in lines your wrote and read
I couldn't understand back than
I don't think I do know
But
What if this never happened
I would still quit at everything
I still would've been suffering and never tell a soul my worst demons
I believe it would've been I,if not you
If it was that way,
Would you feel the same I feel now?
Would you lose your passion as I've done?
Would you create dark stories
Would still fantasize death as I never could
Would you stay strong for others
Would you reach out for help, as I did?
Or you still suffer alone
Or would J figure out as I did
Or was that talent I had,
that was drown as you shattered the world,
Ever worth it,
if I couldn't save you?
Would you trust me with that thought caused the reaction in your death
If I never left the hole of misery?
