For Better...Or For Worse { And If... Sequel - IN WORK}

~Plotting :

•Chapter 30.

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It'd been already two weeks since they found out about the baby and Yani's tumor and RJ still felt like the weight of the world was on both of his shoulders. It was still unbelievable to him to know that he would've been going to be a father. He couldn't help, but wonder how his life will turn out if Yanisha was still carrying their child.

Their child.

Now, he was sure that they had sex at this Halloween party. Crazy. Everything was crazy, but it was life and nobody could change all of this. He had lost a kid, that didn't even have the chance to live and his best friend was suffering and he couldn't help her to get better. He could pray though. But these past few days, RJ wasn't talking to God like he used to.

He wasn't really mad, but he still couldn't understand why the Lord was letting all of this happening. Actually, he had lost a bit of his faith, but he was working on having back entirely. He didn't want to be angry and he knew that he shouldn't be questioning the dear Father, but he couldn't help it.

He was hurt and felt so weak. Life was being unfair right now and it was also stronger than him. He had always been stronger than him.

And the guilt was playing with his head too. He felt guilty for the way he acted towards Yani. He knew that something was wrong. He knew that something was off with her, but he preferred to think that she just wanted to act brand new and he treated her like she wasn't important to him. But actually she didn't want to act like someone she was not. It wasn't the case. At all. She was behaving like a delusional girl because of her tumor.

A tumor.

It wasn't a little thing. It was serious and scaring. He was losing his best friend each and every day. More the days were passing by, more she was getting crazy. Her doctor finally scheduled a day for an operation, since now they knew exactly what was going on with her head; and it was happening today actually. It was really risky, the Wilsons didn't want to do it, but Yani insisted. The little part of her, the one that was still normal and could think straight wanted to try it.

RJ could lose her for good.

"Are you going to go to the hospital ? How are you feeling ? " Tamy asked sitting next to him on the couch. Since he wasn't in the mood, he didn't go to school. He didn't know how, but someone found out about Yani's medical state and he didn't want everybody to ask him a lot of questions today. He had already enough with the other days, he needed a break from them or he was going to hurt someone.

They were pissing him off with their sudden concern. None of them never really paid attention to Yani. They weren't friends with them. Yani, RJ and Dorian were their own clique and didn't trust the others. They needed nobody else. Of course, they were cool with some persons -like Gary- but it wasn't real friendship. And now all of sudden, they supposedly wanted to know how she was doing and they were now there for her, ready to support her until the end. RJ couldn't believe how much hypocrite people can be.

He shook his head, "No. I don't want to see her like that."