Shiva roars,
"Raavi....... "
"Abbb kyon bol raha hai Shiva...... Kio..... Itni der se mere bare mein kya kya nahi bola inhone tab toh tu kuch nahi bola........ Abb kyon..... "
"Raavi bhabhi gusse mein hai ikk baar shant ho jayegi main samjha dunga.....tu smjh please........."
"Main bhi gusse mein hoon......... Har bar main kio samjhu..... Har baar mujhe hi kyon chup rehna hoga...."
Shiva again said in stern voice,
"Raavi baith kar baad mein baat karenge abhi bhabhi thik ho jaye..... "
This was going beyond the belt he just knows how to shout on me and i spoke,
"Nahi shiva ajj yahin baat hogi aur sab clear hoga.....hamesha dhara bhabhi hi kyon teri priority hain.........."
Shiva came near me and said,
"Raavi kal maine bhabhi se ladkar tujhe bahar lekar gya......... Vo nahi dikha tujhe.......... "
"Ehsaan kyon jata raha hai shiva.......... Maine nahi kaha tha ki bhabhi se lad..... Maine nahi kaha tha ki ghumne chale........ "
"Haan toh kya karu....... Tu kisi cheez se khush hi nahi hoti........... "
"Main.... Main kisi cheez se khush nahi hoti....... Tujhse kya manga maine luxury gifts ya branded kapde...... Kabhi kuch demand nahi kiya....... Kehta hai main khush nahi hoti...... Kabhi genuine koshish ki hai kal lekar gya mujhe aur raton raton vapas aa gaye...... Aur bolta ahi main khush nahi hoti......... Kabhi puch tune raavi tu kio udaas hai....... Raavi kisi ne kuch kaha kya..... "Aree tujhse koii baat nahi karti main kio kii agar dhara bhabhi ke bare mein kuch bola tu tabhi mujhpe chilla dega..... Darti hu iss baat se ki agar kuch bola toh tu mujhe chod dega..... Har waqt ikk hi dar lga rehta hai........ Kabhi security di hai tune mujhe....... Aur kehta hai main khush nahi hoti...... Tujhe khush krne ke liye dhara bhabhi jaisi banne lagi ghar ma kam krna maa ko sambhalna bhabhi ko tinka bhi nahi todne diya...... Fir bhi kehta hai main khush nahi hoti.......tujhe bura lgta hai iss liye massi maa se rishta tod liya ikk baar bhi baat nahi ki unse aur kehta hai main khush nahi hoti.............Kabhi jataya nahi hai maine par ajj bol rahi hoon........... Gaumbi hamesha dhara bhabhi ka support karte hai kuch bhi ho jaye chahe maa hi kyon na bole taki bhabhi ko acha lage................. Aur dev agar rishita koii kaam karne lgti hai toh mujhe dant deta hai ki raavi rishita pregnant hai dhyan rakho.............. Aur main bass tera wait karti rehti hoon din se lekar raat tak ki abb aayega dukan se abb aayega tere liye raat ko tarah tarah ka khana banati hoon ki shiva meri tarif karega par hamesha ikk hi cheez sunne ko milti hai pata hai raavi dhara bhabhi na bhut swaad khana banati hain................sab ke saath kahan nai khati taan ki tere saath kha saku............ Par tune kabhi mujhe appreciate kiya hai....Tujhe balance maintain karna hi nahi aata......."
Shiva looked at me with vulnerable eyes and i realised what i spoke...... I shouldn't speak that i kept my hand on my mouth and closed my eyes and went in my room running. I insulted shiva in front of everyone i shouldn't have done that and soon i can hear people fighting outside rishita, maa and krish supportting me and gaumbi ,dev supporting dhara bhabhi..... But i cannot hear shiva speaking he must have felt really bad...... Why the hell i spoke that.....and soon the room opened and shiva entered he locked the room and sat near me on the bed we both were looking down and our tears fell and shiva spoke,
"I disappointed you....... "
I didn't know what to say and he said,
"Maine har baar tujhe let down kiya hai na....... "
"Mujhe yeh sab nahi bolna chahiye tha shiva........ I am sorry...... "
"Nahi raavi agar tu yeh nahi bolti mujhe pata nhi lgta......i have to face the truth..... "
"Tu bura nahi hai shiva..... Yeh tym sahi nahi hai......sab kuch galat ho hi jata hai......"
"Hum dono chahkar bhi apni misunderstandings dur nahi kar paa rahe hai...... "
I looked at shiva and he was looking down crying i sat on floor on my knees near him and hold his hands and said,
"Hum dono ikk dusre ko bhut aasani se mil gaye yarr..... Hum dono ka rishta hamesha galat tarike se juda hai 1 saal pehle bhi aur 1 mahina pehle jo huya tab bhi....... Kabhi bhi hum dono raazi nahi the....... "
He was still crying i moved bit forward kissed his forehead and joined our foreheads and whispered,
"We need a break...... "
I moved back and he looked at me,
"Hum dono hamesha apne feelings se bhagte rahe hai but i think abhi rukna hoga........ Thodi der theraw dekar reality ko face krna hoga...... "
He paused,
"We need a break..... "
I nodded and said,
"Main massi maa ke vahan nahi jaa sakti kahin aur jaa rahi hoon........ "
"Main yahan nahi ruk sakta kahin aur jaunga...... "
"Thoda tym dete hai fir agge badhenge......... "
"Pehle khud ko dhundhenge fir ikk dusre ki taraf badhenge....."
"Jahan bhi ho mujhe message kar dena ki paunch gya..... "
"Tu bhi...... "
All this while we both were crying..... We know we both love each other but this time is not on our side..... We cannot live without each other but he have to find each other first.
He kissed my forehead and moved out.
Maybe this is the last way we both can have each other again.......
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Hey guys!!!!! Second update of the day...... Hope you all like it and please do share your views........ I love you all for being such a great response on last part. And let's see what you all think will happen next.
Yours
ODETTE_DELUSION
