I'm yours if you're mine | Mattheo Riddle x Reader

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"Isabella.. I am so sorry..." Draco's voice cracked, I sat up "what happened?" I replied confused.
Draco took my hand in his and walked me to the hospital wing.

I saw Mattheo and my eyes widened in shock, he was pale, paler then usual, his eyes shut.. on the hospital bed, laying there unconscious, no..

"No.." I mumbled "No.. t-this can't be happening— he—h-he promised me!" My voice cracked as tears began to stream from my face "Please—" my hands began shaking "Please tell me it's a joke— it's just a sick joke right?" They watched me with tears in their eyes, Enzo was sobbing and Draco watched me in sorrow. I felt my knees give up on me, it was like I was going to collapse.

"Draco tell me it's a joke!" I exclaimed "Please.." I begged. Draco didn't look at me, he looked down at Mattheo's pale body and a tear escaped from his eye, I began to historically crying into my palms "h-he promised me!"

I put my hands on his cheeks, ice cold. My lips began trembling "No.." I shook my head "No!" I cried louder, I-I couldn't believe it "y-you said you would love me forever!" I whispered as I brushed his hair softly with my fingertips, tears landed on his bloody shirt.

I pressed my lips softly against his forehead.

While still crying, Enzo pulled my into his embrace as well as Draco as I began sobbing into their chests, Draco's chin was on my head and Enzo rubbed my back, as soft cries escaped my lips "h-he promised me", my whole body began shaking, I didn't want to believe it.

"I'm so sorry darling" Enzo whispered into my ear and I kept crying historically.

there was no hope, I felt his cold skin, no movement, no sign of living. I've never seen him so still..

"I'm sorry dear.." Madam Pomfrey entered the room "may I speak to you?" She asked someone, I didn't pay attention.

"H-he can't be.."

"We don't know yet darling" Draco replied comfortingly and brushed a tear from my cheek, Enzo held my hands as they were shaking uncontrollably.

"Bella" Enzo said slowly

"Mhm?" I said as I whipped my tears with my shaky hands, I couldn't even look at Mattheo without balling my eyes out.

"We should leave, I cannot bare to see you like this" Enzo said looking at me with empathy.

"N-no.. I can't leave him"

"Bella—"

"Please Enzo.. let me be here alone with him.."

Enzo looked at Draco "I don't want to leave her alone.." he mumbled "It's okay, let her be" Draco replied.

Enzo nodded slowly "fine.. don't do anything I wouldn't do love" he said as he kissed my forehead slowly and walked away with the others behind him.

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My eyes were dried out, I could just feel how they were puffy red, I wanted to cry but I just couldn't. I felt a lump in my throat while I was holding Mattheo's hand, I didn't leave his side, I couldn't.

"I love you so much.." I whispered "I don't know what I'll do without you" my lips began to tremble "I-I'm scared Mattheo, y-you said you'll never leave me"

My leg began to shake "please wake up.." I mumbled as I kissed his hand slowly.

"Oh darling your still here?" Madam Pomfrey said looking at me in sorrow.

I looked up and stayed quiet "darling I'm so sorry but you have to leave" she said as she wrapped her hands around my waist and pulled me in for a hug.

I sighed heavily and closed my eyes slowly.
"I love him so much.."

"I know darling, I'll do everything I can, he'll be going to saint mongos tomorrow"

I nodded slowly "would you like me to escort you to your common room?" I shook my head no "no thank you Madam Pomfrey"

"Please call me poppy"

I tried to smile but it was just impossible, I stood up and hugged her goodbye, I watched Mattheo for one last time as I brushed his hair slowly with my hand and kissed his forehead slowly.

I walked out of the hospital wing slowly and I felt all our memories flash before my eyes, how would I ever get through this?

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I reached the common room and I mumbled the password, there sat Draco on the couch waiting for me "Bella.." he immediately ran up to me and hugged me tightly "what are you doing up Draco?"

"I had to make sure that your safe"

"Thank you" I replied

"Bella, I have something for you"

"Hm?"

He took something out of his pocket and now in his hand was a note "Mattheo told me to give it to you, just in case.." Draco said as he handed me the note and sat me down on the main room couch.

I opened the note slowly and it read:

'To my love, Isabella Amaryllis Parkinson.

Isabella, my love If you read this, I am probably no longer in this world.
I don't know where to start,

When I first saw you, something changed, I felt something I had never felt before, you we're different.

You are truly the most precious thing on this planet, I never thought I would nor be capable of loving someone as much as I love you. You make me crazy and I tried so hard to not love you but it was ultimately impossible, I didn't plan on loving anyone, my father always told me that love would only make you weak and he was right. I never realised how much I needed you once you slipped away, I was in need of your presence, without you I wouldn't have been alive for the amount of time I was, you were my weakness.

I never thought I would get so attached to one person.. but you proved me wrong.

I simply, do not deserve your love Isabella. I didn't deserve that and I know that you know it to.
I will always remember the last time you held my hand, the last time you hugged me, the last time you wrapped your hands around my neck and standing on your tippy toes just to kiss my lips, the last time I got to stare into your beautiful brown eyes, the last time I got to kiss you, feel you, hold you, love you.

You've got something that nobody else has amore and I am so glad I found you darling, only you could make me smile at my lowest. You saved me from becoming someone I feared to be.

We had that connection that most people spend a lifetime to find, that is why you are so special to me Isabella Parkinson.

No matter how bad my day was, talking to you for even one minute would make everything perfect. You made my life worth living my love.

I am so in love with you I don't even know how to describe it in words.

One part of me wants you to go find someone new, someone that takes care of you or makes you happy, I want you to be happy and forget about me, but the other part of me is saddened that I won't be the one to love you.

You were my world.. I had even planned to propose to you after the war, I wanted to know how it was to have you as a wife, as crazy as it sounds I also planned how many children we would have and that is something I never thought I would do, I saw a future with us together, living happily with our children, grow old with each other.. well, I suppose it'll happen in another lifetime.

Please, don't feel pain because of me amore, forget about me.

I love you Isabella Parkinson, .

-M.R'