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quiet silence
•~•
i have lost
my voice
anxiety chokes
the words
i try to speak
and try to
free from
the prison
that is
my mind
my tongue
is numb
from sitting still
for so long
that ill stumble
and stutter
when trying
to say
something
its as if
my thoughts
don't know
how to break
away from
the death grip
my self-consciousness
has on them
they fight
and claw
trying to escape
but there
is no confidence
to rescue them
i cant communicate
my feelings
as one
my age
should
they are
trapped in my
throat
suffocating
and fogging
my brain
forcing me into
submission,
making me unable
to communicate
or express myself
or explain my
intentions
or relate to them
in a conversation
this sadness
and anger
that i cant
release
builds up in my
chest
overriding the
rational side
of me
that urges
my words
to be set free
so that i could
sleep
and finally be at
peace
perhaps
these struggles
are saving
me,
cautioning me
to not
expose my
vulnerability
to the blood
thirsty beasts
who stand ready
to pounce
at the
slightest show
of weakness
or fragility
my insecurities have
conditioned me,
so that when
i think
to speak -
i dont try
i just stay silent
my words
my thoughts
my emotions
all remain quiet
- alb
•~•
published: FEB 8TH, 2023
STAI LEGGENDO
𝚜𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚢; 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎
Poesiapoems simply about love <3 however, you will come to find it may not all be about the kind of love you expect self-love, kindness | heartbreak, hate | all tied together by my perspective and experiences and my ability to paint a picture with my wor...
