𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬- João Felix

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João

"you're gonna let that slide?" Antoine said sitting next to me.

today was my birthday, yet it feels like any other day.
apart from the birthday wishes from my friends, i wasn't planning on having a party or anything.
the one call i waited for and cared about, never came.

she did forget.

i tried to not let it get to me and try to make the best of it .

but now Antoine keeps reminding me how shitty of a relationship i have.

"i'm sure she was just busy." i responded, defending myself.

sometimes i think to myself how much denial i have within me.

we're going to be fine we're going to be fine we're going to be fine.

"instead of slouching and crying, get dressed up, i planned you a reservation, along with the other guys."
Antoine said making me furrow my eyebrows.

"you did? why didn't you tell me prior?"

"it's your birthday duh, it's suppose to be a surprise, besides i couldn't let my best friend be all alone during his birthday."

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"you really went out on this one Antoine."
i said looking at the place.
it was like a bar/club but it was hella fancy.

i felt underdressed.

"the birthday boy is here!" Correa yelled looking at us.

i didn't expect this one bit.

mostly because most of us are leaving for Qatar as soon as tomorrow so partying wasn't the best idea.
but fuck it.

we joined the group of guys and started to just drink the night away.

almost making me forget what ruined my day earlier today.

"holy shit, i didn't notice the whole Spain team is here, look." Antoine pointed out to a table further away from us.

looking closely, i somehow recognized a couple faces.
one of them, surprisingly being Amelie.

wait Amelie?

hold on.

she was sitting next to Pablo fucking Gavi. they seemed to be holding hands , she was laughing and talking too.

this don't seem 'just talking' to me.

looking at them side by side, she really does outshine him.
it's not like he's that good-looking either.

but damn, she's glowing tonight.

shut the fuck up João, you just feel bad about what happened yesterday, she's not pretty. no. not at all. not one bit.

maybe a little ?

"you good? you seem tense all of a sudden." i turned to Antoine and reassured him in was completely fine.

"i'm good, i think the alcohol is kicking in. haha."

Antoine left to go get some drinks when i saw Amelie get up and head to the back.

who knows when i'm going to see her again in weeks so i decide that i should just get it over with and apologize.

putting my ego to the side i followed her direction .

god i look like a creep.

i purposely bumped into her to get her attention.

"Amelie? what are you doing here?"

i said, acting clueless of her presence.

"none of your business, now could you move so i can use the restroom?"
she said coldly.

that kind of hit me.

i'm used to her being cold but this time it felt different.
it made me feel something that even i couldn't t describe.

as she was about to go, i grabbed her arm.

"gosh, what now?"

i finally took up the courage and said...

" i want to apologize for yesterday, the words just spilled wasn't thinking."
i looked at her waiting for a reaction, but i got nothing

she was unfazed. like i said nothing.
this is going to be harder than i thought.
"João forget it i've moved on from that, i could care less what you think about me."

i'm apologizing though. isn't that enough?

"it doesn't make it right though, i went far, i'm sorry." i said trying harder.

"you can now stop pretending that you care, just drop it João."

does she really think i'm joking around? she thinks i'm not capable of actually caring?

"i'm serious i-"

"is there a problem here?"

please don't tell me it's him...

Gavi came into view intertwining his hands with Amelie.

"i was just passing by man."

"you clearly weren't since you pretty much were grabbing my girlfriend's arm."

girlfriend? i knew it.
she was lying.

" girlfriend ? that's interesting. i'm sorry for any inconvenience. i'll leave." i tried to leave this scene as fast as possible before i die of embarrassment.

i didn't even turn back and just went out of the place a soon as i could.

i needed some air to process what just happened.

so they were dating after all...

never did i think that Amelie's standard were that low.

on the other hand, she completely ignored my apology..
it took so much for me to get the courage and she just trashed it ?

i get that i said some shitty stuff, but is it really that deep for her to do that.
it's not like she's the nicest either.

well she is, with everybody but me.

i took a deep breath.

why am i stressing about this so much?
i should be worrying about tomorrow and the world cup.
why do i even care who she's with? i can't explain it .