ｔｕｌｉｐｓ- joão félix

7

I woke up at 2am one night, I thought I was dreaming but I wasn't.

the fans had found our address.. but how?!

they were all outside whilst recording and shouting and asking for autographs.

what the actual hell?!

i felt scared, I didn't want to be at home any longer. I was up for the rest of the night.

yes i was tired the next morning but I was too scared, my anxiety really kicked in. João must've been in a deep sleep because I think he'd probably wake up too.

I was downstairs eating some breakfast, just something small.

João was half asleep when he came downstairs

"goodmorning amor!"

he said whilst rubbing his eyes tiredly.

he makes some breakfast too and comes to take a seat infront of me.

"are you alright Kora?"

he says worriedly.

causing me to lift my head up from resting on my hand

"me? yeah yeah I'm fine."

"no, no your not.

"I'm fine joão."

"tell me what's wrong?
your practically falling asleep
in your own breakfast..
you look like you haven't
slept- wait.. did you not-"

"joão I'm fine I promise.
please stop worrying yourself."

"please don't hide
it from me my love."

"listen, there were crazy
fans outside our house at
2 o'clock this morning,
I couldn't cope so I didn't
sleep and I haven't slept
since then. our address
has been leaked, I can't
stay here for any longer.
I can't and won't cope here."

"take it easy love. breathe for me?"

he hugged me till my breathing slowed

I love this man so much.

-

a month later, we settle into our new house in England. whilst we waited to get the house, we stayed at his other house in portugal.

-

one night, I came home late after a photo shoot and he surprised me to a bunch of snacks and a movie night.

he hugged me and patted on the seat next to him on the sofa.

I sit down and straight away he lays his arm on my back rubbing my back

I loved when he did that, it gave me comfort.

he cuddles me whilst we watch the movie

eventually I fell asleep on his shoulder and he strokes my hair with his thumb and he kissed my forehead to say goodnight.