I'm tired of it all. It's so fucking tiring.
Everyday to here almost everyone call me by my dead name. Honestly, I can't even call it dead cause basically everyone uses it still.
Currently I'm balling my eyes out because of how much discomfort I'm in. Whenever I move I feel the disgusting things on my chest move and I can't do anything about it. I would kill for a binder right now. But as my mom says,
"That's gonna ruin your back and kill you, especially with your heart problems."
I don't fucking care! I'll do it safely and I'm more likely to kill myself than a binder will.
'Hey, Maddison.'
'You're an amazing daughter.'
'I'm so lucky to have you as my daughter.'
Well you know what mom and dad?! I'm your son! My name is Mason or Dipper! With he/him pronouns!
I'm so fucking done with them, Mabel's the only one I have right now that doesn't misgender me. She only does it by accident when mom and dad are around. Even people at school do it, teachers include. Only 2 out of 6 teachers have never misgender me or called me by my birth name. Well, since my choir class is with girls, she has said 'ladies' when she means us as a class, but I don't really count that. It just hurts still. When the kid at school do it on purpose it hurts way more. Why can't they just accept it?! Why couldn't I have been born in a male body?!
Do people actually think I want to be trans? I would do anything to have been born as a cis man. It's definitely not a bad thing to be trans, I am it. I just wish I was a cis male. I'm tired of always getting misgendered or misnamed. I'm tired of living in the wrong body that makes me feel like I want to die more. I'm tired of the people at school I have to go back to that will do it on purpose.
And all I can do about it without being yelled at is curl up in a ball on my bed and cry until I fall asleep.
A/N: This is just a vent cause I can't tell anyone right now. I'm sorry if stuff is wrong with it, I've been crying the whole time while writing it. Bye
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Random Gravity Falls Oneshots
FanfictionI'm bored and have random Gravity Falls idea oneshots. None of the pictures are mine (unless I say so), Gravity Falls doesn't belong to me, it belongs to Alex Hirsch and Disney. Request if you want
