A Game Worth Playing (BENdrowned x Reader)

~Do You Hate Me?~

*-BEN's POV-*
Yes! Finally I had a kiss with
(Y/N)! I lifted my hand in front of my face and noticed it was shaking from joy. My whole body was. I smiled as the thought of our kiss replayed in my head. It felt so good, so right, so amazing. I love (Y/N) so much I would kill anyone who hurt her. But she probably didn't even like the kiss. She's probably going to ignore me now..

*-Your POV-*
Wow. Did I just....kiss BEN? I was sitting back on the air-mattress alone in Sally's room while she was downstairs eating breakfast. My face turned red from embarrassment after I thought of what BEN and I just did. I put my head in my hands and looked down at the floorboards...just thinking. He probably didn't even like the kiss. He probably hates me and will never talk to me again. Why do I always mess things up like this? I'm so stupid. I sat on the mattress cursing myself. I started to silently cry. So many things were happening. I ran away from home, moved into a house with a bunch of killers, murdered my own mother, and just ruined my only friendship. BEN said we should try kissing again sometime but he probably didn't mean it. He probably just wanted to cover up his disgust. I let out a distressed sigh. "Great....I'm so pathetic." I whispered slowly shaking my head, still in my hands. I can't let anyone know about this. If the rest of the mansion found out we kissed, I would be so embarrassed and they would make fun of us. I have to go tell BEN not to tell anyone. He's probably going to think I'm annoying but no one can know. I got up and silently rushed down the hallway. I knocked on his door.
"Hmm?"
"BEN, it's me. I need to tell you something." I said.
He opened the door. "What is it?" He asked.
"We can't tell anyone about..u-um....y'know." I stuttered. He looked down and nodded.
"Okay.." He sounded a bit disappointed. But why?