As I watch the horizon
On my long drive back
I can't erase the feeling
This isn't my place
I've been in a few places now
That I've called "home"
Yet no matter where I am
I haven't found my peace
I can't keep living this life
Where I lie to everyone I know
I can't be real with anyone
Because nobody is home
I want to find my spot
The one where it all makes sense
The one where when I look at the horizon
I don't dream of giving in
I've met my goal to be a graduate
But life made it harder for me now
The path I always wanted to take
Became an impossible battle
I want to just start over
With where I am
Who I talk to
What I do
I can't go on like this
The girl in the shadow
The one who trusts the wrong people
Then ends up completely hollow
I feel the end is near
I feel close to my destiny
Like the place and the people
They aren't far away from me
I may leave this all behind
In search of something new
But I think I'll come to find
This time will be the last
It's all I can hope for
A future I can claim
That way I don't stand in the mirror
Feeling hopeless again
I am done being used
Done playing stupid games
I want to find real connection
Even if it takes a couple tries
I'm not just talking about a man
I'm talking about it all
My friends, my work, my house
And of course, my dogs
I have grown tired in my search
It made me weak to the game
I refuse to let these people hold me back
For their own selfish gain
It's hard to break the ties
To leave behind what you know
I believe it will be worth it in the end
When I can finally say "I'm home"
