For four years
You were reckless
Not with yourself
With me
The first two years
You showed me lies
Pretended to care
I believed you
After that
You had me
You knew
I was yours
The last two years
It was all about you
You didn't care about me
You never asked how I was
Every night
I answered a call
Listened to lies
Comforted you
After each call
I sat there
Where should I go
Where's my comfort
Every word
Was yours
I sat...
listened
When you were done
Done ranting
Done getting sympathy
The call ended
This made me tired
Broke my spirit
I cared for you
Left myself alone
That's what you wanted though
Whether you admit or not
You wanted me to need you
Wanted me to feel alone
If I was strong
If I wasn't sick
You never would have had me
But I was weak
You prayed on my weakness
Made my insecurities worse
You claim you didn't know
More lies
"Still don't know how I hurt ya"
I relied on you
So when you left
I was alone with your monster
The girl that was ignored
The raw emotions
The broken heart
I was the monster
Your creation
All alone
Left to face it
The truth
By that time
I was gone
Over four years
I lost myself
The worst part
I didn't even know
I was blind from pain
Until it was all I had
You claim innocence
Act sad without me
It's all a ploy
To hurt me again
Well, fuck you
Fuck you.
Fuck the games
Fuck my pain
While you were gone
Leaving me alone
Your plan backfired
Someone else saved me
He saw your games
And your tricks
He saw what you are
He saw a monster
Though I really tried
To hide my pain again
I couldn't do it alone
I was spread too thin
The pain you caused
The girl and the heart that you broke
Healed without you
I found hope
He showed me who I was
What I deserve
Helped me find myself
Gave me self worth
He's seen the pain you caused
Displayed on my skin
He's seen the heart you broke
The difference is he fixed it
That man is my savior
He's my everything
Now that he has me
He's your worst nightmare
It sucks for you now
You lost all control
Now that it's over
The pain is yours
I belong to him
He belongs to me
Together
We're happy
No more games
Not a trick in sight
Real love
Fighting the good fight
So when you cry over me
And all you know is pain
That's what you deserve
It's why you can't play games
