I don't know what to do
The honest truth
Even though it hurts
Is that I'm losing you
From the first time we met
You meant everything to me
That first FaceTime
I could barely speak
As I got to know you
I opened up like never before
Time passed like molasses
Until it all stopped
Valentine's Day
The day for true love
I surprised you that day
For the first time, we hugged
As I saw that goofy smile
Your arms wrapped around me
The sweet smell of cologne
I snuggled to you and felt safety
I never wanted to let go
You were a whole new experience
For once in my life
I felt complete
Now I think of that night
When everything changed
When I wasn't yours anymore
Now I can't be the same
I still think of that night
The one you can't remember
When you told me about her
A girl much better
I know that she ditched you
That's the problem though
She. Ditched. You
You didn't ditch her for me
As I sat in my car
Thinking through every text
You finally told me
You wanted her to be next
You said you wanted a break
That you had a crush on her
You blacked out that night
Now only I remember
The words you said to me
As I pounded my fists
My console felt the anger
That you never did
You say that you're sorry
It won't happen again
How can I believe
I'm more than that moment
You try to defend yourself
When you don't even know
"Did I break up with you"
Not officially, no
I felt so much pain
I couldn't hold back
It wasn't even crying
It was pure heartbreak
You're saving grace
To this very day
My tears woke you up
You stayed until I was okay
Then you realized
What you had done
Even without knowing the words
You knew it was wrong
The roles switched so quickly
As I comforted you
Now you couldn't breathe
Until I told you to
We've grown since that night
One mistake doesn't define us
Though I'll never forget
I'll put it behind us
I can't help it now
When I think of that night
I feel broken again
Like I lost the fight
Just know I'm trying
To get past that pain
Even though it's over
I still take the blame
