All your fault !

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Tw ⚠️ : ed / sh

Atsushis pov :

They eat and Atsushi goes to the bathroom and throws it all back up .

He sits back down on the couch , Aktugawa sitting on the other end .
"Atsushi what was your childhood like ?"
He looked at Dazai .
"What ?"
"Like was it good ? Bad ? I want to know more about you and now seems to be the best time "
"it was um normal "
"Give me more than that what was 'normal' About it ? Have any friends ?"
"I don't know and no I didn't have any friends "
Aktugawa snickers .
"You spent 18 years there and you never had a friend ?"
"No I had better things to do and they didn't like me anyway"
"Why not your cool "
Dazai leans forward .
"No I'm not Dazai and again I don't know I didn't mind it was better "
"Well give me a name of someone a girl who went there"
"Katie bush she had the weirdest name why ?"
"Found her insta and she still has all her old posts "
Dazai sat next to Atsushi and they scrolled through .
"Omg look your in the background of this one "
Atsushi was in the back leaning on a wall looking around .
"Didn't you have a phone ?"
"No "
"So why did she ?"
"You were aloud if you got it yourself she had some money from helping around "
"You didn't get money ?"
"No one wanted me to help them so I didn't get any money simple . Why are we talkinga about me again ?"
"Because I wanted to get to know you "
"You sound like a bad tinder profile "
Chuuya chokes on his wine .
Atsushi gets up and walks to his room .
"You not hungry ?"
"No not really "

He lays down on his bed and rolled up his sleeve .
The bandages were leaking a little .
To be honest he hated looking back at those photos .
It reminded him of all the abuse and bullying which he never told them about .

He felt a tea roll down his cheek so he wiped it away .
He looked at yosanos message again thinking of a reply .
A- why were you in there ? What did you find ?

It was quick to the point as he k Ew what she was talking about.
'why was she in there it's my house '
His phone dinged .
Y- we were looking for a case file you had . I found some things that may be harmful .
A- like what ?
Y- some blades and a knife Atsushi .
A- where were they ?
Y- Atsushi just tell me if your doing what I think you are .
A- I'm not doing anything and you shouldn't have been where I thi k they were anyway .
Y- ok I know I may have crossed a line but if you are harming yourself you need to tell me .
A- I'm not doing that so drop it . Night .
Y- goodnight Atsushi we'll talk when you get back .

He just turned his phone off .
Why was she in there ? He had them in his room he knew he did .
And the files were on the table in plain sight .
He puts his phone in his pocket and walks to the bathroom .
Tw ⚠️ :
He locks the door and rolls up his sleeve .
Pulling the bandages off and throwing them away .
He pulls off his phone case letting the blade in the sink .
Picking it up and dragging it across his skin .
Going deeper the more he done it letting out all rage .
He puts the blade back and washes his arm .
Taking more of dazais bandages and wrapping his arm .
Tw ⚠️ :
He takes a deep breath and walked out adjusting his sleeve .
He sat down on the bed but the door was then closed .
Aktugawa standing there angrily holding it shut .
"Can I help you ?"
"Or should I be helping you ? I know what you did now give me your phone "
"What ?"
"I'm not dumb give me your phone or I'm telling Dazai "
"Really your gonna tell what are you 6?"
"Ok fine "
He goes to open the door .
"Ok fine I did I'm sorry here take it "
Aktugawa takes the phone and removes the case .
Holding the blade in his hand.
"Thank you do you have anymore ?"
"No that was it "
"Good I'll be back in later "
He watched Aktugawa leave with his blade in his hand .
'that was all I had left '