realisation.
only if chris had realised it quicker,he would've had her.
but it was too late for anything to be done.
so now he's gotta pretend to hate her.
*flashback* "chris chris!!!!!" she said as i opened the door and she came into the house "what happened dumby you seem happy" i say to her smiling. she looked so happy,her smile reaching her eyes with that little dimple on her cheek. "GUESS WHAT" she asked "WHAT" i asked to match her energy "DYLAN ASKED ME OUT AHHHHHHSHHAHH" she started screaming and roaming in the room suddenly i felt my heart sink. what? why how "really?" i said "yes oh my god i dont know what im gonna do" what am I gonna do? i dont know why but this was making me feel sick. i wasnt feeling good at all "chris? you okay?" she asked coming closer to me i slowly sat on the sofa processing whatever feelings that were creeping into my throat "chris? chris what happened?" she crouched down to me level,looking concerned "i just...reya i am not feeling well can you go" "chris you look very pale,are you okay? do you need me to get you something?" "no please just...go,go" i said a little annoyed "but chri-" "JUST GET OUT OF HERE DAMNIT" i shouted. i dont know what got into me but i just wanted to punch something so hard right now. "oh. okay..." she said getting up and walking towards the door "call me when you feel better i guess" she said in a low voice before i hear the door shut
*End of flashback*
it all comes back to me as i am sitting on the bleachers alone. everytime i see her with him it always all comes back to me.
i saw her go and sit on his lap,and all i could do is sit there and watch.
it breaks me everytime,seeing her so happy with dylan. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ME. but i also doubt myself,what if i wasn't able to make her just as happy,maybe this was all for the better. but it still makes my blood boil.
since then every single day i see her the feeling of wanting to punch a wall just gets more and more. can i call this hate? do i hate her? maybe? i dont know.
but i have to pretend. i always have to pretend. i am far into my head when i hear someone call my name
"CHRIS!" i look back to see hannah,a girl from my friend group that i dont like but have to pretend i do.
because guess what I ALWAYS HAVE TO.
she comes to where i am sitting and sits beside me "hey dumby where were you i've been looking for you everywhere" she says happy that shes found me "well i was just thinking about skipping today so" i said getting up and leaving until she grabbed my hand to stop me
"you shouldn't skip on the first day" "do i look like i care? anyway i need some time off" "well okay do you think we can hang out later today?" she asks "not really possible sorry" i say and turn around to leave. i walk home and get to my room,throwing my bag on the floor and getting on phone laying down
@BREYAFELLON
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tagged-@lenamars @dylanmarshall caption:schools gonna suck but at least i got these two (appreciation post😘) LIKED BY: @nicksturniolo,@matthewsturniolo,@dylanmarshall....
comments:
@nicksturniolo: BAES @breyafellon:MWAH
@user4:you and dylan are goals frfr
@dylanmarshall:💋 @breyafellon:💋
@matthewsturniolo: and why aren't me and nick in this post @breyafellon:that'll need a whole another post @matthewsturniolo:okay.
@lenamars: my only @dylanmarshall:BACK TF UP. @lenamars: YOU STOLE HER FROM ME BITCH @breyafellon:guys not here @user87:LMAOO SHES DONE W YALL
i sigh as i look at the screen. i switch my phone off as i try to drift off and sleep to get rid of my thoughts.
hey. im bored (authors note) idk wtf happened to the fond mid chp and i cant fix it😭😭😭😭 short chapter😋
