fine line

five

DICKHEAD

i open the door of the spare room and stumble through the house. it felt like i was completely sober a second ago speaking to rafe but now it's like all the alcohol had reentered my body and i was trashed.

i manage to find an empty seat next to jj outside on the sofa, he asks if i'm okay, i nod and he wraps his arms around me.

what feels like an hour later, everyone's getting up and taking their clothes off. by an hour later it was actually five minutes later and by everyone i mean john b, jj, pope and kiara.
"were all going to the balcony to jump off into the pool, you coming?" jj asks me. I say no, im not really in that sorta mood. Instead i just stay sat with sarah, anticipating the group to jump off.
all the pogues left at about 1am so i took myself to bed in sarah's room. my head hit the pillow and was fast asleep.

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"lani get up" sarah moaned, holding a cup of water in her hand ready to splash over me. i open my eyes and sit up, taking the glass of water from her and chugging it all. i was so dehydrated. after i'm done i get up, pull on a zip up hoodie over the tiny shorts and tank top i drunkenly put on last night. heading downstairs i could hear some loud music that sounded like kendrick lamar or something. walking into the kitchen i see the reason to the loud music: rafe.

"turn that down rafe, I've got a banging headache" i wince at him. he turns it down slightly while placing the bacon on top of his bread. he was making a bacon sandwich for himself. "want anything?" he offers.
"no, i'm fine thanks" i give him a sarcastic smile.
"wasn't gonna make it anyways" he rolls his eyes at me. i grab the bowl of fruit he was preparing and start eating it even though i just turned down his offer. i shoot him a sharp look before beginning to turn away.
"what" he says.
i swivel on my heels around to face him,
"sorry what was that?" i furrowed my eyebrows,
"i said wha-" he begins before i interrupt him.
"sorry rafey, i find it really hard to hear dickheads who get involved in other peoples business" i say to him while walking away and messing his hair up.
"don't fucking call me that!" he shouts from the kitchen,
"don't care" i shout back from half way up the stairs.

i spread myself on sarah's bed while munching on the fruit. she comes out of her bathroom with her toothbrush in her hand and a unimpressed look on her face.
"so what's the plans for today?" i ask her.
"we're all going to the chateau before going out into the marsh" she's still staring at me with that same unimpressed look,
"what?"
"john b's picking us up in twenty minutes so get fucking ready lani" she rolls her eyes and walks back into the bathroom.

i start to plait my hair into two lose braids before getting changed into a pink bikini top of sarah's along with some blue denim shorts and a white shirt to cover me a little (image below)

i popped on some water proof mascara and some light concealer until i heard the car horn of the twinkie. i rushed downstairs, barely tying my converse laces up in the process. sarah was eager about getting out of the house before rafe had spotted john b.

"sarah who the fuck is that outside" he yells, charging into the landing.

sarah rolls her eyes, "none of your goddamn business rafe"

"is that john b?!" he almost laughs out. "oh cmon sarah you can't be for real? your not actually serious about this whole pogue thing?" rafes now looking at her in disbelief.

sarah doesn't say anything but instead just walks out the room. i get why, he can be a dick sometimes.

i go to leave behind her but he grabs my arm, "you have to be kidding me lani?" he says at me, again almost laughing looking at me in disbelief.

"you called me it yourself; pogue princess" i roll my eyes at him.

"yeah but your a kook at heart" he tried to smile at what he just said, trying to convince me.

i pull my arm away from his grip, "you know you can be such a dick sometimes rafe" i say to him.

"yeah well fuck you mailani, and your pogue friends" he shouts out me as i'm walking to the twinkie.

"fuck you too rafe" i say before i jump in the twinkie and leave for the chateau.

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"look who finally arrived" JJ says as Sarah, John B and i all arrive.

"jj i don't think i can name a situation you've ever been on time for" pope states which then receives a side eye off of jj.

we all eventually jump on hms pogue and leave for the marsh. we had secured a good spot and by now it was midday which meant the sun was at its peak. Sarah, Kie and I were laying on the deck soaking up the sun. the boys were all chatting while sharing a joint,
"give me some john b" i shout over to them,
"your not getting high on a boat lani" he reply's. i simply get up from my spot on the deck and walk over to him, taking the joint from his hand and taking a few tokes.

as if on cue an expensive boat, i'm guessing a grady white, comes past and parks up a couple of yards away. their loud drum and bass overpowers our bob marley. everyone stares at them to see who it is. and you've guessed it.. because they're literally obsessed with us... it's the fucking kooks.

"you know mailani, you really shouldn't be smoking ganja on a boat" Topper shouts across the boat. i take no notice and sit down with my back facing them. i have a few more tokes of the joint before handing it to jj. i wasn't that high, i could still function, so i decided to go for a swim.

"anyone fancy a swim?" i ask the pogues,
"yeah go on then" kiara smiles at me. we both start undressing ready to jump in the water. i can hear topper call kelce and some other kooks over to look at 'our madness' of jumping into the marsh. i hate them so much. i jump in the water before kiara. the moment my torso goes under the water i feel a bad shock and realise i've been stung by a jelly fish.

"fuck!" i shout, trying to paddle closer to our boat, "jj, kiara help me up" the two grab onto my hands and pull me up. i almost flop onto the decks unable to move my torso much.

"fuck, no, jj it really hurts" i say quickly, feeling myself start to panic from the pain.

"yo what the fuck" i hear a voice shout over from the other boat. i ignore it. i quickly look over towards the boat to see rafe, topper and kelce all stood at the side of the deck trying to see what happened.

i moved up further into the boat and put my shirt on carefully. "guys can you take me to my dock please" i say to them all. the pogues take me to the dock outside the back of my house. the boys help me up and into my home.

"i always forget your a kook" jj jokes, he seats me down on my sofa and i take a deep breathe. "where are your folks?" he asks

"they're never really in anymore. they go on fancy holidays and trips for work and leave me a shit ton of money as a sorry" i shrug, i try not to talk about my parents too much or i'll cry, so i just stop talking. "jj in the cupboard under the sink there should be a mason jar with some light pink jam looking stuff in it" i say to him.

he comes through with the jar, "this it?" i say yes and take it from him. i further explain how my mom made me this each summer for cases like this. i continue to apply it to my sting and have a nap on my sofa inbetween jj and pope while they play mario kart.