fine line

seven

ONE BED

after john b and jj had gone up, i had about ten minutes to myself before i got a message from rafe saying 'here'. looking to my porch i see him stood outside, looking in. i open the door and he drunkenly walks in, although the look on his face tells me he's sobered up, his body language contrasts that.

"hey" he says, standing in my lounge.
"hey" i repeat back to him. it was quiet, awkward for this moment. "do you want anything?"

he turns down my offer and instead goes outside for a cigarette. i'm sat outside with him on my porch watching the start of the sunrise. it was now 4am roughly.

"can i have some?" i ask.

he gives me a funny look, "since when do you smoke"

rafe passes it over to me and i take a drag, blowing the smoke upwards, "you don't know as much as you think rafe"
"i know more than you think" he eyes up my lips while i take a drag on the cigarette.
i furrow my brows, "yeah? like what?"
"that's for me to know"
"and what? me to find out" i roll my eyes and have a few more tokes before handing it back to him.
"hm," he laughs to himself a little, "no mailani, it's just for me to know" he finishes it and we both walk inside and head upstairs.

i begin to prepare a bed on the floor for myself as i was giving him my bed. the balcony door is open letting in a breeze.

"what are you doing?" he questions looking down at me. i swallow the lump in the throat.
"making myself a bed"

"why"

"what do you mean why? your sleeping in my bed
and i'm sleeping on the flo-"

"no your not" he says sternly.

i furrow my eyebrows at him as his jaw clenches,
"rafe i am, now get out my way" i begin to move past him but he moves infront of me.

"your staying in your own bed mailani" he persists.

"no your the guest your staying in my bed" i can feel myself getting more and more agitated by his persistence.

"how about we just stay in it together? problem solved" he raises his eyebrows waiting for my response. i don't say anything instead i grab my pyjamas and change into them in my ensuit. by the time i'm out, rafes in the bed with his top off. i can feel my heart rate increase. anyone could tell he was built by the structure of his shoulders.

i'm just wearing a vest top and some regular shorts, nothing too fancy. i climb into the bed and lay flat on my back. my eyes are shut slightly- barely.

"lani" i can hear him shakily whisper.

"mhm" trying to sleep i answer back slightly.
looking over at him, he's now turned to look at me and i can feel the warmth of his hand close to my thighs.

he slowly moves closer to me, "what do you think would've happened if kelce never came into the room?"

"i- i don't know rafe" i hesitate with my words, my heart now beating faster than i've ever experienced.

rafes body is now touching mine, i can feel the warmth of him on my skin. very slowly he inches his face closer to mine until our lips have finally met and are moving in sync. one of his hands has now moved up to my face and is cupping it whereas the other rests on my inner thigh, drawing shapes on it.