fine line

ten

for the next couple of days i avoided sarah's. i didn't want to see rafe, i don't think he probably wanted to see me either. not that his opinion really mattered to me at this moment in time.

sarah and john b had an argument the night of the coke incident. they didn't speak the next day but now they're okay. they're obviously not the best but they're managing.

kiara and i had a word with pope about his scholarship and how he can't throw that away. i think we spoke to him more for our own peace of mind than for his sake. we knew he wouldn't throw it away, we just have to know we've tried to prevent it if he did.

kiara tried to speak to jj today but they just ended up arguing so now it was my turn. he was sat by himself on john b's porch sipping a beer.

i waltz up to him, a joint in one hand, a lighter in the other.

"hey jayj" i smile at him while sitting down. placing the joint in my mouth i begin to spark up the zoot.

"hey lani" he replies watching the joint intently. i knew it would capture his attention.

taking i toke and breathing it out i begin to speak, "why did you do it jj"

"i just thought - why not, fuck it" he sighs, taking the joint from my fingers.

"yeah? and what's the actual reason?" i know why he did it, i just want him to admit it. it sounds bad but jj never speaks to anyone about anything going on in his life.

"i just-" he begins, looking out from the chateau, "i wanna know why he does it, like is it that good where you throw away your family for it?"

my heart sinks at his response. even though i knew what he was gonna say, it's always harder to hear it outloud.

"luke's sick, it's not about the drug itself; it's about his brain and his dna, jj" i place my hand on his arm, rubbing my thumb against it as reassurance, "you don't need to try it to understand it"

~~~~~~~ • ~~~~~~~

sarah x

hey, pogues are at mine, wanna come?

yeah sure, omw x

i arrive at sarah's house and let myself in like i normally do. finding the pogues outside on the patio, i indulge in their conversation for a little while until kiara brings up going in the pool.

"sarah can i borrow a bikini?" i ask her.

"yeah, if there's none in my draws then look in the basket in the bathroom" she lets me know while taking off her top to reveal her bikini.

heading upstairs i walk into sarah's room and check her draws but there was no bikinis in there so i head to the bathroom.
opening the door i'm greeted with steam and a slight warmth from the shower. rafe's stood shirtless with a towel wrapped around his waist, his hair soaking wet.

we stand staring at eachother for a split second before the hustle and bustle kicks in. he begins to move out the door as i tried to move out of it aswell.

"oh my god- lani" he breathes out, annoyance laced in his words.

we then simultaneously begin to move inwards , getting caught up in eachothers traffic.

"for fucksakes," he stops and places his wet hands on my arms, "you stay here, i'll move" and with that small gesture he leaves the room for me to collect my bikini. i change into it and head straight to rafes room; to apologise of course.

was i still mad at him for the coke incident? yes. was i still mad at him? yes. do i still want to see a topless rafe cameron? indeed.

knocking on the door i wait until i have his permission to enter. i close the door behind me and stand a few paces infront of it.

"sorry for coming into the bathroom like that" i awkwardly smile at him. he stops what he's doing then walks slightly toward me.

"not your fault, i should've locked it" rafe's now putting on his watch, im staring intently at his hands. i'm a sucker for nice hands. they were veiny but perfectly so. "and i'm also sorry about what i said."

"it's fine, it doesn't even ma-"

"mailani, i don't regret it" he cuts across me.

those last four words made my heart stop. i knew exactly what he was talking about. i couldn't speak, it was like my whole body had stopped functioning.

rafe takes a few steps toward me so he's now so close i can hear his breathes. he dips his head so he's now leaned into my ear.

"mailani" he whispers before i feel his lips connect with my neck. he begins kissing and biting my neck, moving further and further down to my collar bone. "i wanted to do that to you" he muttered in between kisses.

"i want you to do it again" i stifle a small moan.
he now stops kissing my neck and looks at me, doing the triangle method. we stay stood there, looking at eachother for second, hunger in his eyes.

within a second he's begins kissing me hungrily and passionately, moving forward so i'm now pressed up against his door. his tongue is now in my mouth and it feels so good. quite frankly kissing him feels so good.

rafes hand is now trailing the waistband of his shorts, drawing lines above it with his finger. just as he moves a finger underneath the band i hear my name being shouted up the stairs by someone. our lips separate as we just look at eachother waiting to hear it again.

my name gets called out for a second time and now rafe had moved away from me. "i should go" i mumbled out. he nods his head while running his hand through his hair, worry plastered over his face.

i head downstairs and meet everyone outside in the pool. they were all messing about so they didn't notice when my presence joined them again. i tried to act calm and collected but in reality my heart was racing a million miles per hour and my head had all kind of thoughts flooding it.

"so..." sarah trails off, looking at us all mischievously. "rafes hosting a rager tonight and i want you all to come"

jj laughs at her invitation as john b rolls his eyes at her.
"a kook party? hosted by rafe? nah sarah, i'm good" jj spits out.

"cmon guys i need you there" sarah whines.

kiara sips her beer before adding a comment, "as much as i hate saying this, i'll have to agree with jj on this one"

"thank you kie!"

"just last week topper and his kook-squad tried to pressure me to get off their side of the island, if they see me there i'm dead!" jj enthusiastically pointed out to sarah. 

john b sat quietly watching the two sides argue before standing up and getting everyone's attention.
"fuck it. let's show these kooks how to party pogue style"