((Ok so I was crying while writing this so yeahhh))
So it's like 5:26am and I haven't slept I stayed up all night playing a stupid game and I just started thinking about Axel so I re read my book and it was just stuff I all had memories of and I love remembering all of it really but I was thinking and just started crying,
So I was on call with them and I was talking about how I missed them bc I really really did, and then he just randomly said "yeah, it's gonna suck when I move to ____ (can't say the place<33 but it's 16,000+ miles away from where I live)
" when..? "
A- " oh this summer "
Immediately tears started falling from my eyes and I tried to speak but it was really hard to
" But you can't.. "
A- " please don't tell me your crying! "
" ofc I am! Your moving like across the whole world "
A- " ok it's not that far but please don't cry "
" why didnt you tell me sooner? "
A- "I thought I did I told the others as well "
"I didn't remember "
A- " I'm sorry "
I started to cry more
" please don't say sorry it's not you fault "
There was more too the conversation but it was really just me stuttering and asking questions like why or when.
I just, why? Why the fuck did they have to move to ____ that was already far enough and now they are moving a whole 16,000+ plus miles!? But why..? He is like the only person I have and I haven't seen him for like 6 months now almost 7 and, I'll basically never see them anymore, almost never.
