I followed Yuxuan back to the lake enclosure he brought me to originally. On the way, I made sure that Hansel and the others weren't following. My efforts to keep Yuxuan safe didn't change anything.
Yuxuan still kept a brutal scowl on his face. After burying his tiger friend, it was as if I didn't exist. I hugged him, but he never reacted to it. I could only imagine how grief-stricken he was.
And I knew it was harder for him not to be able to express himself clearly, in English. But I wanted him to respond. He hadn't made a peep since we left their camp. He wouldn't listen whenever I called him.
I felt guilty. It was eating me inside. What exactly was I supposed to do? What could I do to make him at least talk to me?
A mango landed on my lap, bringing me out of my thoughts. Yuxuan had thrown it to me. Before he could walk away from me, I grabbed his arm. "Yuxuan, please... say something, anything," I was practically begging him.
He pushed my hand away and placed himself on the far end, near the water. I sighed and sat back down.
I couldn't eat this mango knowing that Yuxuan was upset with me. What if he decided to leave me alone? I wanted him to before, but meeting with Peterson and James only made me realize how safer I was with him. I realized it too late.
I had a new fear. Fear that Yuxuan would abandon me. He'd probably leave me to starve or hand me over to a hungry bear. If I was him, knowing how I treated him, I'd want to be eaten alive too.
Did my father have to endure these kinds of situations?
Every day that passed, I could hear my father's words ringing in my ear. Is this what he meant by struggling to survive?
Lord, I am just a horrible person. I realized that I'm spoiled. Before making a decision to travel, perhaps I should've stayed in London and taken a moment to really think my plans through. I wasn't expecting anything to go wrong.
A droplet of water hit my skin.
Oh no. Not now.
I looked up, and I saw dark gray clouds looming over us. In the next few seconds, the rain began to pour. The water smacked my skin, soaking up my clothes and my hair. I placed my head on my knees and began to cry.
I cried about everything. I wanted to go home. I wanted to see my parents. I wanted to be out of this situation.
The next few days continued like that. Yuxuan continued to ignore me. He only offered me food whenever I needed it. Other than that, he would leave the enclosure for a couple of hours at a time and return with whatever he gathered.
I was starting to crave human interaction. I didn't know how much longer I could go on with Yuxuan ignoring me and leaving me.
The only plus side to being alone was being able to bathe freely without anyone peeking. But I wasn't able to enjoy it anymore. It did feel good to be clean, but I didn't have much to wear.
My top was torn and ruined. It was like I couldn't go a day without another button coming loose. At this point, it was better for me not to cover my front.
I improved my pulling my skirt to cover my chest. It looked like I was wearing a short gown of some sort, with my shoulders and arms completely exposed. The men in London would have a fit. My father would lock me in my room if I walked around looking like the prostitutes I've seen at night.
Honestly, I wouldn't dare to go out anywhere with such atrocious wear in London, but it was all I had left here. I used one of the shredded pieces of fabric made from my completely destroyed skirts and tied it around my waist as if it were a belt. Or it could be a tiny thin corset to really highlight my shape.
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Yuxuan (REMASTERED)
RomanceAlexandrea Noles is the daughter of a rich family residing in London. Despite her family pressuring her to settle down and marry, her stubborn and persistence of wanting to travel and studying Thailand elephants gets in the way. As a result, her fa...