I LOVE YOU 'IRE(POV SEASON 4)

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y/n (Ireen)'s POV

This is weird
This guy is weird
And of course...
This job is weird to me

But ..
I could care less,
I'm tired of killing people, seeing blood and skipping dinner all the time because I couldn't properly eat knowing that I just killed someone
They're not humane, abusing people here and there
but it doesn't make me gain the right to kill them
I know..
It has been 8 years since I'm doing it
But it doesn't make me feel less miserable about myself and feel like I don't deserve to breathe

I can now sigh in relief and admit that
I intentionally
Failed the mission
The mission is very easy it wasn't the hardest one I had encountered
Nevertheless, again

I'm tired

I want to live peacefully
Normally, if I could
Fuck all my guardian's debts! It wasn't mine anyway but well, unfortunately I'm still registered and known as Daebi and fuck it! I might have as well didn't got adopted

Hargh.
I need to stop thinking about it, it hurts my head more

Nete: No, I got it..

He blurted out as he went out of his bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist, water dripping down his defined body, from his hair down to his chiseled chest and abdomen
While I went through the contract he passed me just a moment ago as I wait for him to finish taking a bath, waiting for my turn

He has a good figure actually
Not bad
Not bad for an Aeronautical Engineer
Don't get me wrong
They usually spend time creating machines for hours without taking a bath and just check it
I mean it's just a general perception, you know most of professionals don't give time maintaining good shape
But anyway

"Party B is not allowed to date a guy nor have a boyfriend in the duration of the contract"

it reads right in front of my eyes which I don't find a big deal as, cause in the moment, all I need is money to pay my guardian's debts so that I could freely live my life and stop doing shits they're making me do

Kissing him isn't that bad anyway,
And the fact that he didn't take advantage of me last night made me realize and believe everything he said
How did I know?
I could get drunk so bad, but never forget what I did when I get drunk
so.. I can say that I do remember everything we did last night 

Nete: Uh.. your stuff..

He said putting down my stuff on the couch that is wrapped inside of boxes
I was about to sit up but he speak again

Nete: I got it..

He glanced at my wounded arm which made me also look at it as I can feel my eyebrows scrunching together

I'm not use to resting and seeing someone do something for me ..it's just...
I'm not used to it

Nete: ju-just sit... I got it, you got your arm wounded so ...

I was about to talk back but he walked away towards the door to take the remaining stuff

y/n: but you're wounded too-

I blurted back and decided to help him with the last box of my stuff as I stood up but he extends his right arm, opened his palm and hold my forehead to stop me from coming near him which made him chuckle when I barely slap his arm because of our height differences

Nete: Just close the door...

He said tilting his head, smiling while holding the last box

Its the first time I saw him smile like that..
Like.. well.. he acted like an asshole when we first saw each other