The moment I heard that Kyel is about to return, natakot ako, nataranta, natuwa. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. I mean, how would she react about the thought of seeing me again?
Did she even wished or hope for her to see me again?
“Ynarra...”
Ngayon ko lang ulit siya nakita matapos mawala ni Kyel dito.
“Vishnu,” she smiled a little.
Now that I saw her again, I confirmed, it’s not her anymore. Because my love for Kyel is in my heart and mind again.
“It was nice to see you again.” Mahinang usal ko.
She nodded. “Likewise.”
I bit my lower lip. I assumed, Kyel’s friends are not into me after all. Sa bagay, I hurted their friend so much. I’ve caused a lot of pain. Sa parteng iyon pa lang, ang hirap ko nang patawarin.
“Galit... pa rin ba kayo sa akin?” I asked.
“We’re not mad. Nag-aalala lang talaga kami. Alam mo ‘yon, you are somehow the cause, kaya gano’n kami nag-react towards you.” She explained.
I nodded. “I understand.”
“Nakakaalala ka na raw?”
Tumango lang ulit ako. Alam ko na ang sunod niyang itatanong.
“Bakit hindi mo siya hinanap? Bakit hindi mo siya ipinaglaban? Bakit wala kang ginagawa para bumalik siya sa ‘yo?”
Lumunok ako at lumabi. I don’t really know why. Pero napagod siya sa akin, rason na ‘yon para mahiya akong bumalik.
“I was late. Natakot ako, I might hurt her... again and again.” Mahina kong tugon. “Sumuko na siya, sinukuan na niya ako. Baka pagod na siyang lumaban at ipaglaban pa ulit ako.”
I never thought she would be tired of waiting for me to gain all my memories back. Ipinakita niya kasi kung gaano siyang kadeterminado sa paghihintay sa akin noon. Akala ko, hindi niya ako susukuan.
Hindi pa ako nakakaalala noong nawala siya ng parang bula. At malaking parte sa akin ang naapektuhan at nasaktan sa nangyari. Nasaktan ako na para bang naaalala ng puso ko ang lahat tungkol sa kaniya.
“Won’t you fight for her? Won’t you win her back?”
JE LEEST
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