it had been almost a week of using drugs. i was asking around for pills, really anything i could get my hands on. surprisingly nicky hadn't found out, considering she used to do drugs.i was high out of my mind all the time, it's a miracle i haven't gotten thrown in solitary yet.. i was going down a bad path. i stumble to the library, looking for my sister.
i lay my head in alex's lap, i start to softly weep.
"hey, hey ella—" she rubs my back. "what's going on?" she asks, concerned.
"i'm going down a bad path al. i don't know what to do."
"talk to me."
"i've been taking pills like candy alex. they're everywhere. they make me numb to everything else that's going on and i can't stop."
"shit. you really got yourself into it this time."
"yeah, yeah i know al."
"you can't do this, this'll destroy you. you've still got so much good in you, kid. you've gotta stop."
"i know. and nicky—-"
"what, is she using.. is she supplying you?!"
"no, no. nicky she doesn't know. i can't even tell my friend cause i don't wanna be the reason she relapses."
"nicky is a tough cookie, she's been clean many, many time. i'm sure if you talk to her, she can get you clean."
"yeah, yeah i guess your right."
alex comforted me, until i had to go back to the cell block, i really didn't wanna miss dinner. i didn't end up eating though.
me and nichols had gotten closer, we kissed. but nothing more then that. i mean, since she helped me with the gay thing.
it was the next day, we were at the ICE kitchen. i was stacking boxes in the freezer when nicky walked in. she came up behind me and kissed me, i kissed her back.
"what're you doing? we're gonna get caught.." i tell her
"no, red said she doesn't need as many people." she replies
i nodded, kissing her again, nicky pulls away to close the freezer door before returning her lips to mine.
i reached my hands under nicky's apron, she pulls my hands away. "look, i appreciate this but i'm strictly a giver."
i shake my head, returning my hands under her apron. "do you trust me?" i ask her, innocently
she nods, so i get onto my knees, my head under her apron.
"okay, uh.. your gonna have to stop now cause.. cause i'm gonna pass out.." she moans out
i stop, peeking my head out "your not gonna pass out nicky."
she nods, i return to pleasing her.
we were back at camp, it was lights out. i climb into bed next to nichols who was listening to her radio. i take out her earbuds as i kiss her. i was on her lap, my hands under her shirt.
she looks up at me. "hey, are you okay?" she asks
"yeah, i feel amazing.. im so fucking good nicky.. come on, fuck me nicky.."
she sits up her her bed, me falling beside her. there was a small amount of light peeking through the glass on the cell door.
"are you sure your feeling okay? your acting weird." she asks
"yeah, i told you i'm so good." i replied, high as a kite.
"kid, it's getting late. i'm exhausted. i need to get some sleep." she lays down in her bed
"but i want you to fuck me first.." i lay next to her, kissing her again.
she pulls away "your on oxy?"
"psh... no.."
"i can taste it on your tongue, vause."
"fuck." i get up, running my hands through my hair, i kick the wall
"just lay down, come here kid." she comforts me.
i get into bed next to her, nuzzling my head against her chest. i hold her hand until i fall asleep. she watches me until she falls asleep, her arms comfortable around my body.
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fantasy (oitnb// nicky nichols)
Fanfictionella, a good girl. nobody worried about her, she was sweet and kind. but she held secrets of her own... this fic takes place in maximum security!!!!