homecoming

Restlessness

Stef's: POV
No matter how hard I tried to shut off the thoughts in my mind. I been tossing and turning for the past few hours
Ever since Olivia left to go pick up Lena from the hospital
When she texted me a few hours ago letting me know that she was back in California, Lena mentioned she wanted to talk to the doctor who was assigned Nadia's case. I know she just wants her sister well, l might not have any siblings but I think of Nadia as my little sister as well
She kinda of reminds me of Lena so innocent and easy to talk to. Francesca and Xander went to bed a couple of hours ago, l saw a car pulled up in the driveway it must be Olivia and Lena. Maybe since Lena's back home things could go back to normal again, l remember the conversation alex and I had not to long ago about Lena's anxiety. I don't want to push her into talking about what went on down in Savannah Georgia, l got up out of the bed. Went downstairs to the kitchen to get a cold drink of ice cold water from the refrigerator, Olivia walks into the house carrying Lena's luggage but Lena didn't come inside with her. Stef Lena is out front sitting on the porch she wasn't ready to come in yet maybe you should go ahead out there she's waiting for you l'm gonna upstairs to check up on Alex and my daughter Olivia says to me, l went on outside and took a seat beside Lena on the swing. Baby the kids and I missed you Stef States, l thought a lot you guys while I was in Savannah l never expected to be gone a whole week. Stephanie it was so hard being back there again all l could do was think you and our family. I feel like part of me needed closure to face some of demons
I tried so hard to escape from, when I was there
I felt like that sixteen year old teenager again. The doctors in Savannah said Nadia has dissociation amnesia , which means part of her brain has blocked out some of the trauma. She doesn't remember being shot, Nadia couldn't that our mother had passed away from cancer three months ago. She kept asking me bunch of questions
So I told her the truth about what had happened that Christine had shot her, of course she didn't want to believe it she would do something vicious to hurt her intentionally. But the doctor said that it's going to take a while for her memories to return back to normal, they want her to start seeing a psychiatrist as soon as she's better. I feel like I fail Nadia when I left home maybe I should have kept in contact with her more, l wasn't allowed to call or visit my mother said I was no longer welcome in our home again so I stayed my distance
You know Christine had the nerve to call me and ask me to put some money on her books is she out of ever loving mind. My baby sister is in the hospital fighting for her life because of her, she's acting as if she's done nothing wrong
I don't understand why Chris got herself hooked on those damn drugs in the first place hopefully her time in jail will help her get herself together after losing her son it caused her to lose parts of herself and that's why she use dope to cope with the pain. That girl who came up to the hospital high as a kite was not my sister, she looked like death
I never saw look so skinny also like a skeleton it was scary
And the guy who she bought along with her probably was her dealer, the gun she used to shot Nadia wasn't even registered. Lena says to me, love l want to talk to someone
That call help you with those unresolved issues that you have buried deep down in the back of your brain. Stef Stated. I'll think about it maybe tomorrow afternoon you can come with me to see Nadia at the hospital, l know that I have to swing by the clinic to check up on things.
I've worked to hard to get my practice up and running Lena replied as she leaned her head on Stef's shoulder
Sweetheart l promise we will get through this as a family
Just take one day at a time the babies have been pretty active since you left it's like they knew you weren't here to read and talk to them like you normally do at night Stef told Lena. I'm sorry Lena rubs my stomach