Experience the life with a Natalia, a 14 year old girl with 12 Older brothers! She is Italian and Hispanic! Her parents passed away when she was just 6 years old in a plane crash! She was born and raised in Italy till 3 years old! Experience her lif...
As I wake up I realize my birthday is in 1 week! I'm turning 15.... Which means I will be in soft more this year and Leo and Theo will be In super senior! I know what your thinking won't they be in college nope!
There is a program were seniors can either go straight to college or take another year in highschool which takes off 2 years in college! Since Leo wants to be stylist and be a fashion designer and do makeup professionally he needs 5 years in college. As for Theo he wants to be a surgeon which takes 8 years or more depending on where he wants to go. So with 2 years taken off Leo as 3 years left and Theo as 5 or more!
As for Cole he will be in his junior year.
My birthday is in a week and I'm slowly starting to go back to my depression stage I was before and I can't I just can't go back. I need to change something. Something to make me happy again.
I know I said I need to start loving myself but how if I keep hating myself thanks to all those comments people made on my body.
I think I want to dye my hair red. Maybe I will feel more confident.
Then I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in" I say as I sit up now on the edge of my bed
"Hey, Nat you want to go on a walk with me?" Nico asked poking his head through the door
"Sure."I say as I give a small smile
"Okay come down when you ready" Nico said giving an empathetic smile
"Okay I just need to change" I say this time barely any emotion
Then he closes the door
I look at myself I'm the mirror and sigh.
I hate the way my side-profile looks.. the way my ass is flat. The way I have stretch-marks. The way that i never feel enough. Whatever I guess....I change into this:
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As I go downstairs all my brothers are talking amongst themselves. Then they all stop.
As I look at all them and they just look at me with hurt in there eyes. It's like if I hurt they all hurt too.
"Hey Principessa" Noah says as he strokes my hair and leaves a long kiss on my temple.
"Hey" I say giving a weak smile making Lucas hug me out of nowhere.
I was shocked at first but then I just hugged him back and then he bent down to my height level
"stai bene" Lucas says which means ( you okay)
I pause and just look at my brothers "um...honestly...idk"
With that Ryan comes over to me and strokes my hair. All my brothers love my hair. That's why I'm scared to tell them I want to dye it red.
"And it's perfectly fine not to know" Ryan says smiling at me
I just smile back weakly.
"Okay Nat and I are going on a walk" Nico says as he grabs his wallet and his phone and put it in his pocket.
"Alright.. Have fun" Matthew says smirking
"We will" Nico says as we walk out and close the front door.
It's quiet for a moment until we get down the block.
"Nat.... Can you tell me what's wrong?"Nico says as he looks down at me
"What do you mean"? I ask quietly
Then out of nowhere Nico grabs my hand and near a bench he bends down and grabs both of my hands and looks me straight in the eyes as he bends down to my height level.
"Natalia.. look at me"....He pauses... "every time we go somewhere where there is a mirror you stop and look at yourself... every time we go out to eat you always want to eat a salad... you haven't played the piano since Jake came to the door"... You been in your room.." "you are always on social media." "Natalia... we love you okay and we don't like seeing you like this... your not yourself". Nico says sounding hurt and concerned
With that I break down crying "I-I'm s-sorry"
"Nat.. no no no don't apologize okay." Nico says as he strokes my hair as we are now sitting on the bench that has a table in front of it.
"I-it's j-just that...." I keeping crying I can't even finish my sentence
"Shh shh breathe it's okay Nat" Nico says as he strokes my hair.
"I been tr-trying so hard to be okay but... I just can't all the memories keep running back to me... it hurts knowing that I actually fell for him... I can't look at myself the same without thinking something's wrong. I going back to the state I was before and I-I j-just can't Nico"I say crying and then slowly stopping
"Natalia why didn't you tell us you felt this way?" Nico say sounding very concerned
"I j-just never know how."I say as I'm now sniffing
"We love you okay and we just want you to be okay and we will help you go back to yourself that's what we are here for ". Nico say smiling as he strokes my hair
"Nico...I have a question."I say quietly
"Yes Nat what is it?" Nico says as he looks down at me
"So...I... I want to dye my hair red." I say as I stutter at first but then I say it quickly and close my eyes and open one eye slowly then the other.
"What make you want to do that kiddo?"Nico says as he strokes my hair
"Well...I just...need something vibrant....something to keep me from going back to my depressive state... I just can't do that again I just can't." I say quietly at first but then I just get over the quietness and speak normally
"I proud of you." Nico says and then continues "You are really trying to get help and get away from where your were before... I will talk to Noah and Lucas for you." Nico says smiling
"Thank you!" I say as I hug Nico and caught him off guard again but he then hugs me back and kisses my forehead.
"Let's head back now it's getting kinda late." Nico says as he stands up and I stand up too and begin to walk home.
Maybe just maybe they will let me dye my hair red? Maybe just maybe I will be okay? Maybe just maybe I will be myself again? Maybe just maybe?
