Betrayal, Broken Trust and More Lies

Sebastians POV

"What are you doing in there, are you ok? Just come out and talk to me" Megan was calling me from the other side of the bathroom door.

She convinced me to come and stay with her and I agreed since staying at my buddies place became a little depressing. Ryan was a huge fan of Mila and wasn't exactly happy that we were on a break. I didn't tell him the full extent, just a smaller scale version, of what happened. I don't think any of my close friends would be too happy at my current situation.

Now sitting on the bathroom floor, I realized how fucked I truly was. After leaving our home, I thought I'd give Mila some time to miss me then go back and grovel for her forgiveness. She was always quick to forgive me and, although I knew this was a bigger fuck up, she would eventually take me back.

I went to Ryan's place and drank myself to sleep that night. I told Megan I left Mila and where I was staying so she would leave me alone. She wanted me to come right to her but I told her she needed to give me a day or two to grieve the situation. She was pissed but had no choice.

She had tried to get me to leave Mila from the first time I met her and was always angry at my relationship. When she noticed I was falling in love, that's when she became available to me.

I was completely infatuated with Megan throughout college. She was the cutest girl and very popular with everyone on campus. She was the life of the party and always down to do something and hang.

I adored her and we eventually became a thing. I planned on proposing on our graduation and wasn't expecting to be dumped.

She ended up getting an amazing job offer in a different city that she didn't want to turn down. She also didn't want to do the long distance thing because we were too young. She made me promise we would remain close and I didn't want to lose her completely so I agreed. I put the ring in my drawer and tried to forget about her.

We talked daily and I convinced myself that this friendship thing could work between us. Soon I was flying across the country to see her and would be introduced to her colleagues as her best friend. It hurt at fist, but after seeing that she was completely over me, I began to move on as well.

My heart was completely healed when I met Mila. It was a series of random encounters that started our relationship. It was like fate was pushing us together.

The first time was at a Starbucks when we ordered the same coffee and I grabbed hers by mistake. We laughed, said cheers and went on our way.

I ran into her later that week while having drinks with my friends. We were at the bar when she walked by and sat at a table a few metres from us. I felt like I knew her but couldn't quite place it. After it hit me, me and my friends came up to her and her friends and drank the night away. I had a ton of fun but didn't ask her for her number. She actually seemed like she hit it off with my friend and wasn't that into me.

I ran into her again at a grocery store. This time we talked one on one and I felt something. We exchanged numbers and continued to text nonstop until we planned our date.

After going out, I let Megan know that I met someone cool that I'd think she'd like. She was fairly quiet but wished me luck. After that she would ask about her and make fun of anything I would tell her. She was clearly jealous and it felt good.

When she told me she was moving back I was excited. She had become somewhat of my family and I was happy to have her near me again. She met Mila and hated her from the get-go.

She told me that Mila wasn't good enough for me and that I needed to find someone more on my level. I really liked Mila and wasn't planning on breaking up anytime soon.

It wasn't until me and Mila moved in together that Megan began making her move, flirting with me whenever she got the chance. We slept together and swore it would never happen again. She felt bad and so did I but then it happened again and again.

Eventually Megan asked me to leave Mila. Said that we were clearly meant to be together but she wanted me to figure out what I wanted.

I felt like I was pushed into a corner. I loved Mila and Megan and didn't want to hurt either. I promised Megan I would leave but changed my mind. When I went to talk to mila, my heart broke at the thought of never being with her again. I decided I would tell Megan it was over and hope that she would understand.

Then the dinner party happened and I stopped talking to her all together. She crossed the line and I needed to stand up for Mila. The radio silence killed me and I finally reached out and told her what she wanted to hear.

I never meant for Mila to find out and now I feel like I might have actually lost her. The thought brought tears to my eyes and I couldn't believe what an idiot I've been.