TWISTED

Are you kidding?

*Sigh* After an eternity I finally make my way out of the bathtub, drying of my body and putting on the clothes that Monika gave me. One quick look in the mirror and I head out.

"Monika?" I shout out for the older woman.

"IN HERE." I approach the door, pushing it open. In front of me stands Monika with her makeup off, her hair open and wavy down to her waist and in what I presume is her pyjama. Let's just say it leaves not a lot to the imagination. I gulp, looking her up and down, taking everything in. Monika lifts her gaze, staring at me through the mirror while brushing her hair. Her eyes visibly darken as they lay upon me. "You look so cute Edeline. I could just eat you up." She lifts herself off, walking towards me seductively. I would be lying right now if I said I wasn't completely turned on by her. She's only a couple of inches away from me and I want to step back, but I can't. My legs are glued to the floor. The older woman lifts her hand, tucking some strands of hair behind my ear. I gulp, averting my eyes.
"Please, don't." I mumble as she turns my head to look at her.
"Don't? Don't do what?" Her expression puzzled. "Edeline, I won't ever do anything without your consent. You hear me? Never." Her eyes hold such a sincerity. "Now... I am going to be honest here though. You are a gorgeous woman and I am really holding myself back here. You have no idea how hard it is for me to contain myself."
"Monika, please don't make me do something that I'll regret." I look her deep in the eyes and oh my... I feel like I could drown in them. Instinctively I lean forward, feeling her breath on my lips. Everything around us is a mere haze. I want to kiss her so bad. "Kiss me please." The older leans back.
"I can't. Edeline. I want to I really do... But what about Bada? If you do this you are no better than her." I didn't even think of Bada. My head hangs low.
"So what? It's not like she cared about me anyways. If it wasn't for her disappearance yesterday, who knows what would have happened between the two of us." I glance her deep in the eyes. "Now could be our time to find out." I bite my bottom lip, fully expecting to be rejected.
"Are you 100% sure you want this? Once this is started there is no going back."
"I am sure. And we can always stop if it doesn't feel right." Just as the last word leaves my mouth, Monika connects her lips gently to mine. The kiss stars of soft and tender, turning more heated and passionate by the second. After what feels like an eternity we pull away, breathing heavy. I wanted this kiss to feel good, to feel right but something about it is just not working. My mind kept going back to last night with Bada. I glance at Monika and I think she feels the same way based on the expression on her face.
"It's Bada, isn't it? She's stuck in your head as well?" I joke, trying to lighten the mood. Monika just silently nods. "This is ridiculous." I chuckle and the both of us start laughing.
"Shall we just watch a movie and call it a night?" The older looks at me with anticipation.
"Yeah, sure. That would be nice." After we prep some little snacks and put them on Monika's bedside table, we finally find ourselves under her sheets.
"What do you wanna watch?" Monika switches thru the different options on Netflix.
"How about 'Up'?"
"The Disney movie?" I hum in agreement. "Alright then." She puts on the movie and we watch in silence. Soon the scene where Carl looks thru his memories with Ellie comes on and the music starts playing. A single tear rolls down my face. And then another and another. I try to hold my sobs but it's no use, Monika's already heard me.
"Dee, are you crying?" She pulls me closer to her, wraping her arm around my shoulders, to where as my head is now resting against her chest.
"The scene is so sad. And... And... The music is definitely not helping." I wipe my tears with the back of my hand.
"I think it's cute." Mon gives me a kiss on the side of my head, resting hers against mine. The movie continues on and I can feel my eyelids getting heavier by the second. It doesn't take long and they are completely closed engulfing me into the warm darkness.

*Chirp Chirp*  Urgh. How I hate the chirping of birds in the morning. I want to roll over and dig myself into a pillow when I feel a strong grip around me. Slowly I open my eyes and look around, quickly realising I am not in my room. I glance down and see Monika still sleeping peacefully and it hits me. Everything from yesterday comes flooding back in. The dance class, Bada, our kiss... I sigh, rubbing my face. Why does life have to be so complicated. Carefully I remove the sleeping woman's arm off my body as not to wake her and head over into the bathroom to freshen up. After that I walk out fo her living room, picking up my phone from her coffee table.