Lost And Found

Part 24 (Spark Ignites)

Freya's P.O.V.

It's been a week since I've been back and I'm really, really trying to let Blake in but it's been hard. I thought it was gonna be easy opening up to him, but it isn't. I love that fact that he's being respectful about it and isn't pressuring me into anything... I've been trying to clear my head by doing some paintings Sean asked me to do for him. I've always loved to draw and paint, I always find it relaxing. As for Blake's family... I haven't met them yet. At least not the way I was supposed to. I want to make things with Blake okay before I meet his family. I want to feel more comfortable and safe... As I finish the last painting I hear a light knock on the door.

"Come in."

"Hey." Blake walks in. It was a bit strange because he never came in here. I don't know why, I guess he thinks of it as my private place or something.

"Hi." I smile.

"Whoa, holy shit. You did this?"

"Is it that hard to believe?"

"No, no... They're amazing. You know you could sell this."

"I don't know." I look down.

"Why naked women?" He asks curiously.

"They're for Sean. He's always be a perv in hiding." I joke.

"Can I get one?" He gets behind me and puts his arms around me to reach for the belly. I glare at him but not because he's touching me, but because of what he asked me... He notices and backs off "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to--"

"It's okay. She's your daughter."

"Yeah but that glare?"

"It wasn't because you touched my belly. It's because I'm not drawing you a naked woman."

"Not even if it's you?" He flirts.

"No! I'm not drawing you a naked painting of myself. It's weird."

"Okay, how about your face then?"

"That sounds psycho.. ish."

"It is creepy, isn't it? Oh God, I'm sorry." He rubs his forehead, knowing he just embarrassed himself. I gasp as I feel a hard kick. "You okay?"

"Yeah, she just always gets like that when you're here."

"Really?"

"Yeah." I smile.

"Can I?"

"Of course you can." And it was at that moment, when he touched my belly again as our daughter kicked, that the spark ignited again. They way he looked into my eyes... I felt the connection again. He was going to kiss me but I back out I don't know why... "Um... I should get these to Sean."

"Yeah, sure... Do you want me to take you?"

"No, I'm okay... I'll be at the bakery."

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"So wait... He was going to kiss you? And you backed away?! What the hell is wrong with you?!" Diana yells.

"I'm sorry! I panicked!"

"You panicked?!! You are carrying his child! Which came as a result of having sex with him and you panicked because he was going to kiss you?"

"I know it's stupid. But I don't know what came over me."

"You are the weirdest person I've ever met."

"I don't want to be with him, Diana."

"Why the hell not? I thought you loved him."

"I do, but his world and mine--"

"Oh, don't give me that bullshit. Forget the world you live in. 'Cause you, him and that little girl are the only things that matter at the end of the day. I know you're scared, but you can't be afraid to love. So when you get back, you go to him and tell him how you feel. Because this isn't fair to him either, Frey. He loves you too."

I guess she's right... Damn, it.

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Blake's P.O.V.

I felt like such an idiot. I made I complete fool of myself. I'm supposed to be making her fall in love with me again, not freaking her out. God, I'm such a weirdo... I got woken up at 3:00 am by here. I thought she was gonna hop into bed with me, but who would after today?

"Hey, you okay?" I ask her.

"Yeah, I um... I was downstairs, and I noticed you don''t have any ice-cream. And I'm craving some ice-cream."

"Did you seriously wake me up for that?"

"I'm sorry, it's not my fault." She whispers.

"Just go to sleep."

"I already tried, and I can't."

"Okay, so what do you want me to do?"

"Go get me some." She smirks.

"It's three in the morning. No one is open at this hour."

"There's Walgreens... and Wal-mart." I love her... but this is pissing me off. I just want to sleep. "Please?"

"Fine." I get up from bed, upset by the fact that I have to go out at this hour to buy fucking ice-cream.

I go to freaking Walgreens and buy the ice-cream. Chocolate ice-cream, God forbid I bring her the wrong one.

"Is that all, sir?"

"Yes, ma'am. I got a pregnant woman at home."

"Not a lot of guys go out at this hour for their wives."

"Yeah, well. She's a keeper... Thanks."

"Congratulations."

"Thank you." I finally leave... I get home and before I go upstairs I grab a spoon. "Okay, here's your ice-cream." I say tired. What I see next pissed me off so bad... She fell asleep, in my bed. "Oh you gotta be kidding me." I whisper. I cover her up with the sheets and take the ice-cream back downstairs.

"Hey."

"Jesus! You scared me."

"I'm sorry."

"Weren't you asleep two seconds ago?"

"Yeah, sorry."

"Are you mad at me or something?"

"No, why would I be mad at you?"

"Well, maybe because what I said this morning. And then you come home and don't say a word. Then, as if you want to piss me off, you wake me up at 3:00 am to get ice-cream. Which I do get and when I come back, you're asleep."

"I'm sorry... I didn't mean to upset you. I just don't know how to deal with this."

"With what?"

"This life, this love I have for you... I was supposed to tell you how I felt when I came back from the bakery, but I just didn't know how because... I don't know how to explain my love for you..."

"You don't have to... Just tell me that you do everyday. We can take it from there."

"I..."

"Freya, I know you feel like you need to heal on your own, I get it... But you don't have to... Just don't make us both suffer more than we already are. Because I can't pretend anymore..."

And with that, I leave her to her thoughts. It's hard to have her so close and yet so far...

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Ugh! Sorry for the boring chapter guys! I just wanted to update.