Lost Diary {Taekook}

seven

Jungkook
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I was standing besides my car near the school gate. I had calmed down after what happened earlier and I regretted hitting Taehyung but it was not my fault.

As I was standing there I saw Taehyung walking alone his cheeks still red..

I sighed. " Taehyung " I shouted. " come here".
He then came to my direction and it was obvious he didn't want to come. " Get in the car" I said and he looked at me.  " huh?" He said
" we are going to your house to work on our project" I said. " oh. Okay "

Taehyung
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I was so confused when he said we are going to my house to work on our project. I couldn't understand this guy's mood swings. I just got inside the car.

It was so silent during the drive.

" uhm... why were you crying earlier in the class" Jungkook said and I looked looked at him surprised at the sudden question. " oh.. I lost something" I said.
" oh okay. It must be important"
" uhm yeah it helps with my anxiety and panic attacks"
" oh.." Jungkook said and he focused back on driving and I just kept quiet

We arrived at my house. It was a big house. My parents owned a big company before they passed and left everything on my name and I was quite rich but I kept that as a secret. 

" woah Taehyung this is your house!" Jungkook said his jaw almost hitting the floor and I just nodded and went to unlock the door.

We then went inside and went to the sturdy room and started working on our project. About an our passed.

" let's stop here I'm tired" Jungkook said getting up from the chair. " but it has only been an hour" I said with one eyebrow raised. " I know " he said and left the sturdy room and I followed him and he ended up in the living room.

He then collapsed his body on the couch and turned on the TV which I barely used. " when are your parents coming back home" he said and I sat on the couch next to his. " They passed away" I said in a low voice and I saw him facing my face. " oh God I'm so sorry I shouldn't have asked that" he said

I sighed. " it's okay".
" so you stay here alone" he asked and I nodded my head.
" you must feel lonely" he said
" no not really I'm used to it " I faked a smile and he nodded

We then sat there and there was an awkward silence between us and I hated awkward silences

" uhm Taehyung.." he said and my attention. " do you want to know why I hate you so much.." he said looking at me and I just nodded my head.

" uhm.. before you came to our school I was the top student in our class and my dad would praise me and and tell his friends about it. He said and took a sigh " but when you transferred you ruined everything, you became the top student and my dad became abusive with me because I was no longer top anymore. Every time we get our marks for something he always gets abusive, like Today I'm sure that he is going to beat the shit out me" he said and I just looked and there was  little tears in his eyes.

" Does he beat you a  lot?" I asked him,  he then took off his shirt and he had so many bruises. I started shaking. " that's...beca-because of me?". " yes.. it is all because of you" he said. " I'm very sorry Jungkook!!"
I said. "Yeah it's cool" he said and putted his shirt back on.

" Jungkook...How do you manage to deal with all this"
" uhm. I smoke and sometimes I cut myself but it has been a month since I cutted.
" you smoke! But smoking is not good for your health.. what if you get lung cancer and die!"
" That would be great because it's not like anyone would care if I die or not"
" what! A lot of people would care.. you will break a lot of hearts if you die. So please stop smoking"
" it's not like I would take your advice, I'll quit when I want to"
" Okay then, it's your life after all" I said and he just focused on the TV
" what about you.. what do you do when you're stressed out" he said
" I write poems"  I responded and he nodded