What will happen next?

Chapter 1: christmas break

Wilhelm
In the car

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

I'm so dumb
I'm so so so dumb

Why did I do that??
What's my fucking problem???

Simon is the only one who really cared about me since Erik died and now its all over because of ME

And i told him that i loved him??
Of course he didnt tell me he loved me too after what I did
He looked back at me once
But i looked back two times
I really don't want to go to the palace, it doesn't feel like a home there
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-Hey Wilhelm! My mom said giving me a hug as soon as i stepped in the palace
-hi mom. i wasn't going to be nice to her all Christmas break because its also her fault that Simon broke up with me!
-Well someone's got an attitude today
-I'm just not in the mood to talk right now, see you at dinner mom.
She didnt have time to answer that i was already running to go in my room
As soon as i got in i locked my door and went on my bed.
I just cried

Cried

Cried

And cried

For hours
Until..
-Hey wilhelm its mom can i come in?
-Uh no not right now.
I was still sobbing and i hopefully she didn't hear me
-okay i just wanted to tell you that its time for dinner!
-ok thanks
Im not in the mood to eat right now

I'm not in the mood to do anything

Beside talk to Simon

but i can't

so i guess I'll just stay in my room all Christmas break
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Simon
in bjarstad

I hope he's okay
I really do
But why did he do this
Why??
And why did he tell me that he loved me?

-Simon mi amor are you doing okay?
« No mom im not okay and i miss him but i also hate him i don't know what to do »
Thats what i wanted to say, but instead i said
-yeah mom don't worry im fine! I love you
-I love you too mi amor!!

I'm such a horrible person
I'm just laying here lying to my mom about my feelings
And its because of him
because of wilhelm

You know what, fuck Wilhelm
Oops i already did
But seriously
I just can't deal with him anymore
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It was already night time when i woke up from my nap and i didnt know what to do so i just listened to some music
Then « strange » by Celeste started playing

« I am still me
You are still you
In the same place

Isn't it strange
How people can change
From strangers to friends
friends into lovers
And strangers again?

Back to this room
back to our roots
What did we lose?
What did we lose?

If i could
I'd pull your strings for one more dance
But i can't

Say isn't it strange?
Isn't it strange?
You look at me
I look at you
With nothing to say »

Suddenly, i was crying again

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