What will happen next?

Chapter 9:its my fault

TW⚠️⚠️: sh

wilhelm

why did he have to see this? ahh did i have to do that? it's my fault again.

we were just becoming friends again and like every time i fucked everything up.

-wilhelm it's not your fault
-it is tho! like always i am the problem
-no wilhelm you are not.
-i am
i said while starting to cry again

then he just hugged me and told me everything was going to be okay..

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it was night time, simon was sleeping because i told him i'll be fine and i was going to go to sleep.
i didn't

it's just..

i couldn't

i was just overthinking and stressing about everything..

maybe he'll never see me the same now. maybe he'll always be worried about me.

i don't want him to be worried about me

then it came back

the urge to do it again

to cut myself

i can't do it in the same room as him

it would be awful if he found out

but i need to do it

now

i rushed it the bathroom and i locked the door. i picked my razor blade out and again,

i cut myself

it was bleeding

a lot

i was almost covered in blood

i was crying, of course, but i couldn't stop doing it

that's when he woke up.

i heard him asking me where i am

but i couldn't talk

he was trying to open the door but since it was locked, he couldn't

when he finally opened it, i saw his face, he was crying

i wanted to console him but one second later, everything went black.

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simon

he fell unconscious and covered in his blood. it couldn't be true. i can't lose him

i cannot even imagine my life without him, even as a friend

i rushed to take my phone and i called the hospital. when they said they were on their way i opened the door of his room to ask malin to help me.

everything went so fast and then, an hour later..

he was in the hospital and he wasn't waking up

sorry i'm leaving you with this chapter for tonight but i promise they're going to be happy soon🙏🙏😭
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