Piece By Piece MONTY X FEM READER

~ Chapter Twelve : Under Investigation: Part One ~

A/N:

Heyy!!, sorry for not uploading, I've been sick, the Winter is really kicking my ass, had a head cold and now it seems it's my throat's turn to become a dick :') But I bring a peace offering :D

I just like to share with you guys that I have a new Fur baby, little Bella, the most adorable staffy EVER!, She was mistreated and starved by her original owners so if you see a random picture of a Staffy in a future chapters Cover picture it's my Bella and that's my peace offering <3 

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~ Y/N POV ~

Because Bonnie's attraction was still under construction, we both decided that we would make our way to Rockstar Row and towards my Greenroom as I had got a notification that my room was finally clean and it was a much safer place for the both of us than an environment filled with construction and so we did just that, and I couldn't help but smile as I witnessed my younger brother interacting with starstruck children, giving them high-fives and telling jokes, he's always been a joker and hearing the children's laughter filled me with warmth, we eventually arrived at Rockstar Row, and I opened the shutter to my Greenroom.

Y/N: My room is a lot cleaner than it was before

I giggle as I open my Orange and Gold door to see my room clean as if that rage fit I had yesterday didn't happen at all and I sat down on my Golden couch, Bonnie following me and sitting next to me.

Y/N: Listen Bonnie, there's something I have to tell you..

I turned to face my brother

Bonnie: What is it N/N?....

Y/N: Listen.... I'm dating Montgomery

I turned my face away from him with guilt, he was silent for a moment before he turned my face towards him

Bonnie: .... Is he treating you right?

His blue ears, dropping with concern, I just nodded my head, not meeting his eyes

Bonnie: Why won't you look at me, Y/N?

Y/N: I-I don't want to see your disappointed face

I manage to respond, still not looking at him

Bonnie: Why would I be disappointed, N/N Foxy only wanted you to be happy and if that means dating someone else then so be it

Y/N: He wanted me to be happy?... even when I betrayed him

Bonnie: Come now N/N you're being weird, Foxy wouldn't see it that way and you know it

I finally focused my gaze to look at him, I guess he's right, I'm really happy dating Monty in fact I don't think I've ever been happier being with someone, is that terrible to say? I know Foxy isn't the type to hold something like this against me but I've not only fallen for someone else, but I've also taken his identity! I can't help but feel like I've betrayed him

Y/N: But Bonnie, I've also taken his identity! How can you still say that he won't hold it against me !

Bonnie: Not by choice Y/N,I know that much and he would know that also, you really need to stop beating yourself up over things you can't control... you need to forgive yourself

Forgive myself? How can I forgive myself! I've only caused my friends and family pain and suffering, I didn't even TRY to save my friends and siblings from Afton, even if I knew I couldn't I should've done something! Instead of hiding like a coward while everyone tried to escape him, fuck I hate being so WEAK! Nothing's changed!, no matter how hard I try to rid that weak side of me by presenting myself as a strong, mighty Pirate Captain of the seven seas I'm just not... I'm still that helpless, PATHETIC, girl deep down. I felt my eyes water as I get lost in my own self-doubting and destructive thoughts and I could feel myself dissociating from everything as those hateful thoughts echoed over and over again in my mind