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Not so sneaky

I Have been ignoring everyone for the past two days,I am way to upset to speak without yelling they didn't need to share my business with each other.I promise you there is much more intriguing things to talk about than me crying which I wasn't.  

I peek over at the alarm clock on my nightstand 3:48 am, fuck it.I hop off my bed lifting it up slightly grabbing a joint and a lighter. I quietly creep over to the window sitting next to it head by the opening.

I flick the lighter a few times before it actually lights, I bring the small flame down and light the joint in-between my fingers. I lean my head out the window tossing the lighter on my bedroom floor before placing the joint in between my lips inhaling deeply.

I breath out smoke filling the air out side blowing away with the wind as if it was never there.Fuck that is some strong shit.I take about four more hits before taping off the ash and and putting out the hot end.Already not thinking clearly I toss the dead joint out the open widow before shutting it.

6:34Am woooo when did it get so late I swear it was just three I giggle to myself for the thousandth time.I push my body off the plush bed I was laying on.I look around and spot the door.Hungry.I am sooooooo so hungry why? Whatever I'm getting food, I once again giggle to myself.before leaving my room and heading down the stairs.

When I reach the end of the stairs I see Mave and Liam sitting so close that its gay.Whatever I'm hungry, I am sadly stoped before get my food by a voice."Oh hi Avery its nice to see you out of your room, and very early at that." Liam says in his usual calm voice."mmmh yeah great,Hungry." I mumble out nearly incoherent. making my way to the kitchen.

chips and salsa decorates the counter in crumbs and splatters of red.I I giggle at the mess I made .I hear someone enter lifting my head up to see Mave suddenly remembering what he did I lift up my finger and point at him."Fuck you." I grumble out "Excuse me?" He asks brow slightly raised."you told fuck face I was crying and now he won't hop off my dick, and just so we are crystal clear I wasn't and don't cry!"I mange to get out still stumbling over my words.

I see Maves face do this thing I don't know how to describe it,It was almost like he had a realization. An that I was correct,He sniffs the air like he had already done three times before looking at me."Are you high!" he says looking very irritated.I look at him eyes wide how did he know,"shshhh how did you know?"voicing my thoughts."Number one your acting like a child number two you reek of weed." he says glaring daggers at me .

"Please don't be a bitch don't snitch" I plead before giggling "Hah that rhymed get it-"before I could finish explaining my rhyme jerk."If you think i'm not telling Xavier your crazy." he says Turing on his heel and making his way to the olders office."wait don't do that!" I try to plead with him passing Liam who's looking at us with a concerned look on his face.

He knocks on the door and enters, I watch as he disappears into the room I was fucked and the high was wearing out the stress unclouding my mind.I watch as the door swings open and a livid Xavier comes out and a smug looking Mave behind him.

He looks at me with angry eyes just like my dad."Avery we have very simple rule that I expect to be followed, so tell me why you are high right now!?"He all but yells and then suddenly i'm back home and a "client" had complained to my dad about he knows what.First he will yell and scream then he kicks and punches, my heart drops now terrified i'm not here anymore right now I am 14 and scared.

I hear the yelling I put my head down, I hear foot steps I keep my head down, I feel the eyes I keep my head down.The yelling doesn't stop, My hands begin to shake as my eyes sting and my heart starts beating faster.He looks strong he can for sure beat the shit out of me. My lip starts to tremble mind filled with bloody imagery from the past.

The yelling quiets slightly still loud still angry. "Avery look at me when i'm talking to you this is serious!" I can't I want to say I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't."Hello Avery!?" it leaves his tongue louder.please be quite I do not need to cry not here theres to many eyes yet I'm frozen in place.in fear.

"Xavier.." I think Kaiden speaks,The man still mad takes a breath before answering in a calmer tone.Run he's distracted run, No that will only make it worse you can take it. Kaiden speaks again "I think your scareing him..."He says with worry in his tone.

My heart drops am I that obvious, I look at my trembling hands and feel the tears that had managed to escape drying on my face yes I am that obvious.I feel Xaviers eyes on me I brace myself for his loud voice or a hand across my face."Avery, are you okay?" is voice now calm with a hint of guilt. I don't reply I can't even if I wanted to I can't words refuse to leave my tongue.

"Avery..?" he asks again even calmer than before I didn't even know that it was possible to sound calmer.I feel a hand on my shoulder...snap. My Head shoots and my eyes forward finally comprehending what's going on. I flinch back away from his touch knocking his hand off of me.He looks at me shocked I don't pay much mind to that.

Theres to many people to many eyes.My eyes dart around looking for a way out I am fully freaking out now my whole body is shaking god how pathetic.My eyes find the stairs I bolt towards them shoving someone in the process not aware enough of my actions to care.

I slam the door to my room shut sliding down it bringing my knees to my chest sobbing into them.I wan't to stop but I can't my body keeps shaking.Why am I so scared?Why am I being so dramatic?It's the weed it has to be.Or maybe i'm just that pathetic.I have to get out of here I cant face them after this god that's to embarrassing.

I always forget how tired I get after crying.I don't wan't to move no I can't move.My body slumps over as I let the feeling of stress and sleep over come me.

Sorry about the really late update long story straight we had some issues with dhs and then I was at the phyc ward so that was fun.I will be updating more soon.AND PLEASE TELL ME IF THAT ANST WAS TO CRINGRY OR GAME SO MUCH SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT. and something I released is that I mixed up Liam and parkers personalities like this whole book so i'm just swapping them you really won't even notice if you go back through the book.- Eli<3

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