Herculean Thoughts

XVI.

Detaching myself like a shedding skin
Escaping the reality
Embracing my mind
Leaving them behind
Shutting off my heart

I know I know nothing
I know I cannot know everything
If you haven't had me
Then you haven't had the worst

I am clouded
I'm friends with the clouds
I'm stuck
I never want to get out

Facing my mind
Searching for my validity behind
What I found was not enough
Never been satisfied, never will be

He's just like me but he's not
She said I'm like him
No, she's mistaken
I know I cannot be identified

Search me in the underground
You will find worms
Search me in the clouds
You will find rain

I am not who I am
I'm living outside the sphere
Never wanna get in
Never far enough

Where shall I stay
In my mind it's too messy
In the night it's too dark
I'm not lost but I'm misplaced

Tempted to desire a better place
But better is my mind
Everywhere seems so far away
I cannot get close

So I stay stuck
Whatever I don't give a fuck
Keep the cycle going
I'll die anyway