wrong car

chapter 10 - car ride home

Isabella's pov:

Silence the car silent but as soon as we are driving he pulls my shoulder forcing me too look at me

I can't forcus my breath unsteady

"Why did you have to do that!!?" He screamed in my Face and I ignore him "you will get punished for it" he said and I again ignored him

Punishment.

My breath even faster ,tears at the bridge of my eye's , the walls closing in and suddenly the thought of punishment hits

"Izzy listen to me!!" Adrian screamed and I froze "punishment? Your like him aren't you ? No Adrian please don't be that bad " I said unable to breath at all anymore

I attempt catching my breath

I can't fucking breath

"What happenings?" Adrian asked panicking

My vision on and off

I'm unable to control my body at all , I don't know what to do or say

"What do you mean by punishment?!" I said short of breath "I don't know , what's happening what do you mean?!" Adrian asked confused

"I'm sorry" I said and turned around focusing on my breathing

Counting to five in my head

1

2

3

4

5

Over and over again until the attacks over

When it's done all I can do is sit there looking out the window

'you hardly had a life in the first place'

How can someone say that he knows nothing at all , he doesn't know about me or my Life

"Izzy!" Adrian said grabbing my chin pulling me towards him forcing me too stare up at him

"What wrong?!" He said and I looked at him confused

"what's wrong!? Seriously Adrian? I've been kidnapped, someone just made fun of someone's who killed themselves, I got slapped , I lost it Infront of everyone and then I got blamed for it!!" I said trying to push his hand away from me

"I did it because of you, I kidnapped you because you make me feel something and I don't ever feel anything, you keep me from going crazy Izzy , I do not blame you but you need to keep your emotions under control I'm sure your friend was great but she's gone " Adrian said and my blood boils

Does he not think I know she gone?!

"I know she's gone Adrian but I want her memory to still thrive , she killed herself right Infront of me And it's my fault!" I said turning around so close to breaking point

We've done this before Izzy get a grip.

"How is it your fault?!" Adrian yelled like he was angry at me for blaming myself

"I made her go to that ball" I mumbled out and then Adrian yanks my head in his direction using the back of my neck

"Do not ever say that again! You hear me?! Do not blame yourself I may be angry at you but you do not put any blame on yourself for that , it was her choice!" He told me but it's like his words just go through one ear and out the other

I just look at him keeping eye contact

"Why do you even care?" I suddenly ask and he looked shocked

He's a mafia boss why would he care about how I feel