I love you

Forgiveness

Chays pov:

I honestly have no fucking idea what it was about this man that I loved. Maybe it was his hair, skin, body, looks, or just his ability to get me to blush after one tiny comment. The way he is so perfect. The way he takes his time to understand me and makes sure I am okay, that will forever be something I hold on to.

I woke up earlier than P'kim as always. I guess I am just used to waking up early, when hia had to leave for work I would always without out a doubt wake up to see him leave. He never did tell me what he used to do, but I don't think it could be as bad as what he does now.

"Good morning, love, why are you up so early." P'kim asked me while pulling me back to him by my waist.

"Oh, I always get up early, I am used to it." I say hoping that this topic of waking up early is done. It's not that I don't like to talk about hia it's just I know P'kim has been through a lot worse. But I can't help but cry at night sometimes about how my hia did everything for me and I did nothing for him.

"Let me make you something, love"

"Mhm."

Kim's pov:

Fuck, fuck. The pictures of me and this girl got out. It's not like that, I put that on my life. But if Chay's sees this I am dead, not by him but his bother. I am gay. One hundred percent. This pictures makes it seem like I am kissing her neck but I was just telling her something. Puls, people know me as wik so that can fuck up my career.

I try my best not for him not to look at his phone. I can't give him un another reason to not trust me..again. I made him waffles. I remember him telling me about how before Porsche went to "work" he would make him waffles. I guess you can say it was a comfort food.

"Kim, what the fuck." Chay comes out of the room with his phone opened to a picture.

"Love, it's not what it looks like, okay, I promise you that." I say going up to him trying to put my hand on his waist, but he pulled me away.

"No. Get your hands off me. After everything...After everything you've done to me." He says holding back his tears." I can't with you. I am going to the room. Don't even bother me with the lies about it. I don't understand that even after I forgive you, you pull this shit. Fuck you. Eat a dick. And it won't be mine." He says trying to hold back his anger and a tear falling.

Fuck. I thought he would not find out about it. How. Why. He was so pissed  that no amount of begging out of me would work.

"Love, I bought you food. I want to talk things out." I say with a tray off food, anything thing he could possibly think of was in there. I know now that he doesn't eat much because of me. I think he thinks that I will fat shame him if he eats, which I would never do. But sometimes those thoughts can be loud.

He doesn't even look at me, not once. He continues watching his show. I put the food down and waited for him to talk. After a while I got tried of waiting for him to talk so I move to the bed which was a bad idea. He jumped up and left the room, I of course followed him, it was only right.

"Stop this Porchay. I can't keep doing this." I say a bit mad. I know it was wrong for me to play the victim but still.

"Oh, you want have an attitude. I. Will. Beat. You. At. That. Game." He says looking at me dead in the eye.

"You should at least let me talk."

"Do as you please" he says with an attitude

"Trust me when I say this. I would never cheat on you. I know that picture looks like I am kissing her neck, I wasn't. I was talking to her. She couldn't hear me so I got closer and I guess that's when they took that picture." I say. I reached for his hand but he pulls back.

"Love?" I ask a confused.

"I believe you but that doesn't mean I am going to forgive you that easily." He says with a smirk.

"What do you mean, baby." I ask with a bit of confusion.

"No kiss, no hugs, NO SEX For a month."

"What the fuck, you can't be for real." He just nods in response." Fine"

Remind me to never hurt him again or ever. I thought I would have to worry about his bother but no I have to worry about him. I could only imagine the things he could do to me. He took away everything I loved. I couldn't kiss him, hug him, have sex with him. About the sex thing though, I think he will give in a week.

Chay's pov:

I honestly wanted to kill the shit out of him for that. I mean I do believe him that he would never cheat on me. But can you blame me, after everything he did to me it's kinda hard not to think that way. Plus, being an over thinker doesn't help.

" love I have food for you, you haven't eaten anything." P'kim says with a sandwich in his hand. I smiled and shook my head. In all honesty I wasn't hungry, I did not want to eat.

"Love, come on." He says in a doe voice.

"  I am not hungry, I promise." I don't know if he can read me easily or what. I did have a problem eating, when Kim did what he did the first time. I use to think it was my fault,  it wasn't but even then I thought it was because of the way I looked or something.

He just left it alone not wanting me to get upset, I do pick up the sandwich and took a few bits just to keep to quiet. I know I forgive him way too easily but I think no kiss, hugs, and NO SEX would make him beg for me to forgive me.

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I wanted them to have a little fight before things take a turn for the worser or better. Till next time.

-Eva🩵