Silence

Ch 3 || Your Drunk??

⚠️Self harm and Depression⚠️

I run out of his room and to my dorm and sob in my bed. So many thoughts are going through my head right now. I'm fucking done with this shit. I get up and grab a bottle of Vodka and a razor from under my bed and go into the bathroom.

I put a silencing spell on the bathroom door and sob as loud as I want. I take a few gulps of vodka and then I start cutting and sobbing. After about two hours I come out and look at the time.

Fuck. Snape held me till midnight, my fucking father held me till 2 am yelling at me and now it's literally 5 am. and i'm drunk. perfect. i might as well get ready for school.

I take my clothes and go back into the bathroom and shower and just drink still. once the bottle is gone I get out of the shower and get dressed and look at the time again. It's now 5:30 and I sigh. I start to walk around the castle and then I stumble into my dad's office. "Da- dad.." I say falling onto the floor

"Y/N!! What happened?" He says running over to me as I lay there.

"I th- think i'm- drunk.." I start sobbing and he stops and stares at me. "YOUR WHAT! Y/N YOUR A FUCKING CHILD! DONT COME RUNNING TO ME!!"

I sob and run out and to the astronomy tower where I go to look at the sky when I need some peace. I hear walking coming from down the hall and I stop crying. I look up to see who it is, and it's my dad.

"Y/N.." he comes over and hugs me and i sob into his shoulder. "I'm so sorry.. I shouldn't have yelled at you.. I was upset."

"It's okay.."

We sit and he holds me for a bit and then looks at his watch. "All right it's time for school.. I'm sorry.." "I know.. thanks dad.."

he helps me up and kisses my forehead softly and brings me in for one last hug. "Of course.."

I go through the day avoiding all my friends until Draco hunts me down.. I push him away. I don't mean too.. It's just my natural reaction when shit gets bad.

Then we hug and blah blah blah all the cushy lovey dovey shit that I hate. Then, yup, you guessed it. Potions. The only person that I hate to see. The dungeon bat.

I fall asleep, again, and get a detention, again. This time he makes me scrub the floor. I roll my eyes like always and start to do the work. Once i'm done I go back to my room like always and pass out like always.

I wake up at about 2 am and can't fall back asleep so I decide to go to my dad's office. I put sweatpants on and then slide on my green slippers with the letter S in silver. I grab my wand and walk into the corridors. "Lumos"

why is it so dark in these damn hallways?

I walk for about 2 or 3 minutes when all of a sudden, out of no where, I bump into someone. "Shit- I'm so sorry-" I look up and see none other than the dungeon bat himself.

"Language Miss. Lupin.. and watch where you're going... speaking of going, why are you awake?"

"I can't sleep so i'm going to my dad's office."

"Don't. Lie. To. Me."

"I'm not lying"

"Hmmm? Why would you go to your father's office if you can't sleep? Hmm?"

He pushes me up a wall and I gasp.

Why do I like his touch-

We stare at each other and then, he kisses me. I widen my eyes in shock but after a second I kiss him back. He pulls back away shocked.

"Miss. Lupin I think I should be going now."

"No Severus, please no"

"This is a bad idea and it shouldn't have happened. I'm so sorry, go to your dad's room and don't tell him a thing."

"Severus Wait"

But he dosent, he runs away and I stand there in shock for a minuet before I walk to my dads office. To my surprise, he's still awake grading papers.

"hi dad"

"ah y/n, can't sleep"

"no"

he opens his arms and i go hug him
and then i go lay on the couch and fall asleep.

"Y/N!" I hear a voice and someone shaking me and i groan "What" "School sweetheart, get dressed." I groan and sit up rubbing my eyes and yawning.

where am I- Oh right, I slept in my dads room.

I get off the couch and stretch and walk to the closet. I grab a fresh pair of robes and my uniform because my dad keeps some in his room incase I sleep in his office so then I don't have to walk all the way back to my dorm to get dressed.

I bring my clothes into the bathroom and brush my teeth and then get dressed. Then I brush my hair and use a makeup charm because I'm too lazy to do it today.

Me and dad walk to the great hall and I go sit by my friends and grab a chocolate croissant and smile at Draco who says "That's my girl, finally eating some real food." and smiles as he shoves his mouth with food and I laugh.

"Y/N where were you this morning?" Lana asks with a hint of concern. "Oh I couldn't sleep so I went to my dad's office." I say with a soft smile as I take another bite of the croissant.

I look at the professors table and see Snape staring at me and I look at him and then he looks away, clearly embarrassed that I caught him looking at me.

The day goes on like usual and then it's time for potions. Snape just glares at me and I glare back.

What are you looking at bitch

Elise pulls me out of my own world and back into reality as we begin to make the potion. I can't stop looking at him, though. I know it's wrong, believe me I do, but I just can't help it.. he occasionally glances at me and then back down which is... weird.

I didn't really get much sleep so I'm still pretty tired and I'm trying so hard not to fall asleep but it keeps becoming increasingly difficult as the class drags on.

I put my elbow on the table and my head in my hands as I watch Elise do the potion and I fall asleep.

"Y/N!" she nudges me to wake me up and I jump accidentally knocking over a potion.

Fuck. I'm dead.