Silence

Ch 8 || Grounded.

Shit.. Where am I?

I roll over and see Severus and get scared for a second. "Severus!" I push him and he jumps awake "Y/N! What's wrong?"

"Don't we have school-"

"Shit-" We look at the time and see that it's 8:00 and jump out of bed getting dressed. "Bye Sev! See you later" I give him a quick kiss before I run to my first class. I go sit in the back because, well, Elise and Lana are mad at me. Draco's my friend again so I guess that's good.

First period goes by quick and then it's second period. I have DADA and I know, i'm fucked. I walk in and he gives me a stern look.

shit.

"Y/N, stay after class. The rest of you, open up your books to page 403." I nod and sit in my normal seat over thinking every possible thing that he would want to talk to me about.

Could it be Severus? But how would he know.. Draco? Friends..? That I keep getting detentions? That I'm not eating? Maybe he knows that I'm cutting again...

My leg starts to shake and I pick my nails when I feel someone or something touch me and it causes me to jump "Y/N! Wake up."

Oh, it's just my dad. "Sorry Professor.."

"Detention."

"But I-"

"Y/N, stop with the excuses." he turns to walk away when Goyle says out of nowhere "Professor, isn't it wrong to.. I don't know.. give your daughter detention?"

"Goyle this is none of your concern, but for your information, from 8 am- 6 pm, Y/N is my student and not my daughter."

I sigh and put my head on my hand. "Y/N pay attention." I nod.

After class I stay and he locks the door leaning back on his desk. "Y/N.. we have to talk."

"But not now can it wa-"

"No. It has to be now.."

I sigh and walk over to him.

"Why are you never in your room in the mornings?"

"Hm? I'm sorry- what?"

"Elise and Lana came to me a few days ago and told me that you haven't been in the room when they wake up, is everything alright?"

I roll my eyes "Yes, I'm fine. I just wake up early to go look at the lake."

"Y/N you shouldn't be doing that. If I catch you out of bed, you'll be grounded. Understand?"

"Yes father."

"Good." he unlocks the door "You may go. I'll see you later."

"Bye."

I walk out and go to my dorm and see Lana doing homework and Elise reading a book. "You bitches!"

"Wha- what did we do?" Lana asks looking at Elise who shrugs her shoulders.

"You fucking told my dad that I haven't been sleeping in here at night!"

"Y/N were just worried.. I mean- you should be happy tha-"

"Happy? Happy!? I'm going to get grounded!"

"Y/N! Let her talk." Elise says crossing her arms and I sigh.

"Fine, what."

"You should be happy that we didn't show him this.." Lana reaches under her bed and pulls out a shoebox.

"Oh? A box? I'm so scared." I roll my eyes and she opens it. I stare blankly. I stop breathing. I just stand still. They found my razor and alcohol. "You bitches! You went through my shit!?"

"Y/N we were just worried.." Elise says trying to come give me a reassuring pat.

"Don't touch me!" I say backing away turning to leave but Lana locks the door.

"Open it!"

"No! We're worried! First you break up with Draco, then you're not eating? Sneaking out and not coming back until breakfast? Y/N we care about you." Elise says and I start to cry

"Nothing is wrong! Okay?!? Now let me leave!" I say with tears starting to fall down my cheeks and Elise sighs unlocking the door and I run out. My feet just keep running until I get to Severus' office and I open it not knocking and I run into him.

"Y/N! What happened?" he says shushing me and bringing me into a hug. I sit on his lap and cry into his shoulder and he rubs my back softly.

"Lana and Elise.. they found my razor and a bottle of vodka under my bed.. they're threatening to show my dad if I keep sneaking out.." I say sobbing and he stiffens.

"I won't let that happen.." He says still rubbing my back. "But we should probably not.. see each other so much.. I'm not breaking up with you.. I promise I'm not, but if we don't want people to find out-"

"I get it.. I love you.." I say giving him a soft kiss which he returns. He cups my face and gently wipes away my tears with his thumbs. "I've got you, love. I won't let anyone hurt you."

I smile and hug him. "I've got detention with my dad.." I say getting off of his lap. "I'll see you tomorrow love." I kiss him softly which he returns "I love you too princess." He smiles and I leave walking towards my dad's office.

I walk in and he looks pissed. fuck.

"Y/N i'm worried about you." he says with his face softening a bit.

"Dad I'm fine."

"No you're not Y/N! Stop saying you are!" he says walking over to me "You were drunk." he pauses "Y/N.. are you.. are you cutting again?" he places a hand on my shoulder and I stiffen and freeze.

"Y/N! I thought you were done with that!!" He says backing away and I cry.

"Me too! But shit is fucking worse!"

"Y/N language! And like what?"

"People! Merlin dad! Elise and Lana are backing away because I'm getting worse again, my grades are slipping- and I- I don't want to do this anymore, okay?"

"Don't want to do what.. anymore?"

I bite my bottom lip trying to hold in tears when I finally say "Life!" and he looks shocked. His eyes widen and he looks sad. "Y/N.."

"Leave me alone!" I say backing away.

"Y/N! If you leave, you're grounded for a month! No friends! Nothing! You sleep in here and never leave except for classes!"

"Shut up.." I say softly starting to cry.

"Wha- what did you just say to me?" He says in a demanding scary as shit voice and for some reason I can't seem to control my words.

"I said SHUT UP!" I scream and cover my mouth as tears start to pour down my face. "Y/N DO NOT TALK TO ME LIKE THAT!"

"SHUT UP I HATE YOU SO MUCH!" I scream and run out the door crying

"Y/N YOUR GROUNDED GET BACK HERE OR ELSE I WILL NOT LET YOU LEAVE MY ROOM UNTIL YOU START ACTING YOUR AGE!" he yells but I don't turn around. I keep running. I'm too scared and embarrassed to go back. I've never told him to shut up before..

who am i anymore..

I can't go to my dorm because of Lana and Elise, and I can't go see Severus because I don't want my dad to be mad that I'm with him, I have no where to go..

I go outside and just go sit by the lake and cry. I should run away.

I hear leaves crunching behind me and I freeze.