In The Grave But Still Alive

TENSION

{MO'S POV}

After the days events I couldn't help but feel like everything was still eating me alive. I shifted slightly in my seat before I excused myself and went back upstairs and entered the guest room where my bag was. Once I entered the room I shut the door and turns the lap on. I sat down at the desk and emptied the contents of my bag onto the table. I sifted through to find my drug bag. Once I located it I moved everything else out of the way and opened it. I looked down at the little neon pink baggie taking a deep sigh and slowly opening it, I scooped out four lines and began cutting up the rocks to a smooth powder and cresting my lines.

I was so deep in concentration I didn't even know there was someone behind me, I just got this overwhelming sensation of someone's presence but I didn't feel the need to hide what I was doing. The next thing I know I saw just sit down on the bed next to me. He looked at me with a smirk "I had a feeling you never changed." He chuckled slightly as I gave him a soft smile and shrugged my shoulders. I continued making my lines before grabbing my straw and snorting one line before I offered him one if he wanted, he nodded slowly and stood up and walked over to me and grabbed the straw from my hand. As he did so I felt the butterflies in my stomach and my face immediately became hot and I started blushing at the small contact we had. He eventually did his two and left the last for me so we'd each have two lines. As I finished I started giggling and placing my things back in their bag before I stood up and walked over to Justin and stood between his legs. "I have really missed you lady bug." He said sweetly as he placed his arms on my hips. I smiled and leaned down and kissed his soft lips. Our lips soon moved in sync and he quickly began bitting my bottom lip. I broke the kiss quickly before I pushed him down on the bed and got ontop straddling him. Our lips found eachother again and his hands roamed my clothed body but it didn't take him long to get his hands into my boxers that Ricky let me borrow. I felt him smirk against my lips as he discovered I wasn't wearing any panties, I felt his fingers caress over my folds and clit, slowly spreading my legs a little further to give him complete access he flipped us over so he was on top. He scooted down all while pulling the boxers off. He looked up to me as if he was wanting my permission to do what we both knew he was going to do already. I simply bit my lip and nodded. Fluttering my eyes shut out of pure bliss and being high as a fucking kite. I felt his lips meet my clit as he bean to eat me out and sticking a few fingers in side me. I let out this moan that was so sweet and intense as I haven't felt this feeling in so long.

Once he made me cum I went to return the favor and he just grabbed my hand I looks at him confused before he spoke "Mo you don't have to and I don't want you to right now. I just wanted to make you good." I smiled and felt my self blushing and covered my face with my hands.  "God! You're so good to me baby!" I squealed from behind my hands as I felt the bed shift next to me. I looked from behind my hands and saw him sit up on the edge of the bed. I sat up along with him and bumped my shoulder into his before speaking again "another line and maybe a smoke and join the other?" He laughed and threw his head back before saying a quick yes to me. I jumped up so fast got to work. This time again I opted for a big fat one and my god did it burn going up I could feel the warmth take over and I bit my lip as I handed the straw to Justin and he did his which of course he wanted it big like mine. We were like two peas to a pod. He used to be my whole life and I  fell hard and fast for him and now he's back!! I giggled at my thoughts picked up some powder from the table on my finger and gummed the rest feeling my mouth instantly go numb. I threw on my biker shorts and we made our way downstairs.

Once we got into the living room I saw Vinny and completely squealed and ran to him and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back tight and swayed me before we broke apart he kissed my head "yall didn't tell me Vinny was back what the hell guys!" I heard a few laughs from the guys and looked at everyone in the living room. "Literally all my favorite people are here." As I was speaking I couldn't help but see Ricky looking at me like his heart was out of his chest on the floor. I bit my lip and walked over to him and whispered into his ear so that it was private "come smoke with me" he chuckled and nodded his head grabbing my hand and interlacing our fingers as he led me to his patio out back. Once we made it outside I hopped up on the railing and looked at Ricky with so much love in my eyes I know he felt it. "Mo do you need a cigarette?" He asked shaking his head. "I know what the look means when we go for a smoke" I simply nodded my head he gave me a cigarette and I put in my mouth and leaned in so he could light it with his lighter. He soon light his and leaned against the rail letting out a sigh. "What's wrong hun?" I said to him quietly as I was kinda thinking it had something to do with me. "You know Chris heard you and Justin right? Like whatever happened in my guest room he heard it." He stated before taking another drag of his cigarette. I signed loudly and hopped off the ledge and faced him "nothing even really happened like oh my god I loaned a few times so what?! It's not like we're together! I'm not with anyone and I'm having fun! Like seriously he can get the fuck over it!!" I huffed and took a drag and just shook my head. Ricky looked at me and gave me a sad smile before speaking again. "I know I know. He gets possessive and we've all told him that you're a flirt and this is what you do. I mean I love it, you have so much love to give and I'd be scared for the day you don't express yourself that way. But I will say we heard you say you love Justin well to quote you. You technically said "fuck I love you" but ya know." He shrugged at the end of his speech. All I could do was smirk. I leaned my head on his. "Can I sleep with you tonight?" I felt him nodding and we stood there finishing our cigarettes.

Once we entered the house we saw Justin and Ryan wrestling eachother while Chris and Vinny were in the kitchen making snacks. Everything seemed the way it's supposed to be.

{RICKYS POV}
As Mo and I came back in I took her hand in mine and led her to recliner and sat down and pulled her into my lap. She snuggled into my side as we watched Ryan pin Justin to the ground shouting "VICTORY!! I WON MOTHER FUCKERS!!!" Mo giggled and sat up a little bit and started talking to the guys when I heard my name get whisper called from the kitchen. I looked over and saw Chris and Vinny waving me over. I placed my hands on mo and scooted out from under her as I made my way to the kitchen. "Yeah what's up?" I asked as I made my way to the guys. "Did you say anything about like us hearing her?" Vinny asked as he threw his hands up and motioned to all of us. I laughed and nodded my head before replying to him "I did and look she sorta freaked out on me a bit and just said that she's free to do what she wants and it wasn't anything serious. She apologizes in Mos version. She's a little fucked up on something like I don't know if it's cause she had a bad day and like everyone kinda found out about what she's hiding or if it's something else." I stated. Chris looked at me confuse death his brows furrowed together saying "what do you mean fucking up on something?" I just shrugged my shoulders we all looked over to Mo who was in the living room sitting on top of Ryan. "She looks like Mo to me not fucking up"  Vinny announced. "Come on let's just take these snacks in there and watch a movie or something." Chris grumbled as he took the popcorn and sodas in the living room. After we all sat around talking and trying to watch interview with a vampire I noticed Mo disappeared upstairs once again. I got sorta curious and followed her up the stairs, I saw her go in to the guest room and then to the bathroom once she closed the door I knocked softly against the locked bathroom door. "Mo? It's me... Ricky. Can I come in?" I never heard her respond but heard the door unlock instead. As I walked in the bathroom you I saw her sitting on the counter. I locked the door behind me before facing her again. She quickly pulled me into a kiss that was so passionate and sweet we both softly moaned against each others lips and I soon felt her hand go down my pants and into my boxers. I felt her grab my cock in her hands delicately and started moving her hands to start jerking me off. I groaned and depended the kiss we were sharing she bite my lip making me part my mouth slightly as she slipped her tongue in my mouth. I was completely under her spell and mesmerized by her like she was siren. What felt like hours was only a few minutes. I stood there allowing her to do what she pleased to me and as my breath caught in my throat I moaned softly and came in her hands breathing slightly heavier. She pulled away from me and slipped her hand out of my pants and shifted her self slightly and washed her hands off before drying them on the hand towel. "You can stay in here with me before going back out there infront of every one. You're a little blushed" she said quietly. I nodded and took a seat on the closed toilet lid. My thoughts were racing and I stuttered a little before getting my sentence out I wasn't even watching what she was doing. "Do uhm do you ever do this with Chris?" I said quietly not thinking she heard me. I looked up slightly and saw her playing with a pink baggie. My eyes sorta widened when I saw the white substance inside. She was doing cocaine? How did I never know?! I watched as she scooped some into her nail and put it to her nose before rubbing some on her gums. She tilted her head and signed softly. "No. I don't do this with him" she finally met my gaze but couldn't hold eye contact with me.. it was never a problem for her to meet my eyes only when she was lying but I know she was telling the truth. I think she couldn't look at me because she knows I know she does drugs now. "May I ask why? I would have thought you did it with all of us?" I was honestly genuinely shocked by this like I thought she would have jumped his bones by now. "He has me on the pedestal. And it would get complicated too quickly. He's so sweet but, I feel that he'd get more so attached if I jerked him or he ate me out or something" she did another bump before beginning to speak again. "I've stay at Ryan's house a lot of the time and we've fucked and like hard and lovingly. But we both know it's a release it's nothing more than that. Justin he literally just ate me out a couple hours ago to make me feel good and wanted after the day I've had. It's nothing more than like giving someone a long hug when a person is upset. What I just did with you Ricky? I wanted to make you feel good and one I just kinda couldn't resist myself... it's why I wanted to sleep in your bed. Also. To like give the guest room to whoever needs it." She at this point got off the counter and dumped some more powder onto the counter. I watched her as she did so. She made herself a line and I don't know why but I felt content that she was doing this infront of me and not hiding it. She snorted a big line and I witnessed her eyes roll back as she tilted her head back as well and smiled. My breath caught in the throat as I started at her.