HEART NEVER LIES ( A Collection of poems )

How am I?

I am a coward

I pretend to be brave

I put on a front, look how mighty I became.

They see me in a positive light, they see me shine,

They don't see the fossils I leave behind.

I can't protect the ones I love, 

Because the people I love, don't love each other.

You will never know how it feels, 

until you live with them, 

See them hate one- another.

It cracks open your heart,

gives you searing pain,

Tell me, whom to protect?

Whom should I defend?

I am coward,

I sit in a shell,

when voices become louder,

In my heart silence descends,

I pull away from reality, push myself deeper inside,

But nobody knows since I am a good actor outside.

I smile like sunshine itself is my moon,

Who would know it hurts and I pray desperately I don't end up like them too.

This path I walk, I will tell you I am terrified,

Despite that, I don't even try.

I wish I had cried.

Can you make out the story behind these words?