Envy

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You live far away,

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You live far away,

You have no inkling of my feelings to this day,

Sure I never told you but what do you even expect?

That I should bare my heart just for you to reject?

I know that you don't love me,

I know I am a fool

I love you so much that just looking at you breaks my cool

I yearn for you to feel how I feel

When I find you love someone else,

I yearn for you to feel how I feel

When I see you kiss someone else.

I am green with envy so real,

God knows, I have tried to resist this as well.

"She is so pretty, she looks kind, she probably gives you butterflies...."

My heart is all choked up,

Can't even tell if it's tears or rage,

I am mad at you

But more so I am mad at myself,

Should I rip away this part of me and set it frozen on display?

I don't want to feel like this

I don't even want to confess

But I crave you to feel this

Feel this agony

Before I walk away to bliss

Stripping myself of feelings as I trace

The bloody lines where my heart used to be

I want to think back

And remember, how I was so green with envy

For a boy that didn't belong to me.

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